When Jayson had first discovered the truth, he was both upset and infuriated. The thought that Ariel might not love him was unbearable. Still, he kept those emotions locked inside.
The more he thought about it, the more absurd it seemed. Yet he couldn't bring himself to question Ariel and risk making things awkward between them.
His only solution was to leave on a four-month business trip, during which he stayed in Lockewin for quite some time.
A photograph of Jayson and Ariel from their wedding day sat on his office desk—the only picture they had ever taken together.
Once, in a moment of overwhelming emotion, he had thrown the frame away. But later, he retrieved it and placed it back on his desk, unable to let it go.
He spent a long time thinking.
Ariel had only married him because of others' schemes. Left to her own choices, she likely would never have agreed. She had been forced down this path.
Lucas had served three years in prison after the Sanderson Group ran into serious trouble with one of its projects. Jayson believed Ariel still harbored hopes of being with Lucas, judging from the way she had decorated their marital home.
Her disregard for him made Jayson furious. Yet deep down, he knew it was because of his interference and the manipulations of others that Ariel had ended up trapped in this situation.
He couldn't bring himself to let her go. At the same time, he didn't want to keep her by his side under the excuse of love.
Jayson wrestled constantly with his thoughts.
He knew Ariel's nature too well. She was always willing to sacrifice herself for others. Out of guilt toward him and out of obligation to the Sanderson family, she might very well choose to stay with him for life.
She yielded too often. She sacrificed too much.
Jayson had even considered pretending to know nothing just to keep her with him forever.
But he also resented her for not loving him, and he envied Lucas for being the one she cared for. Yet, he also knew he had countless ways of making her stay, even if she ever decided to leave.
Even if it meant she resented him, he didn't mind. He had never been generous to begin with.
But reality pressed in on him from all sides. His own position and status burdened him with endless troubles, while Ariel was constantly under pressure and manipulation from others. Must he become one of those people too?
And once Lucas was released from prison—what then?
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