Dear Ex Wife Please take me back (Athena and Alex) novel Chapter 180

ATHENA

“Is this why you brought me here?” I turn to Luca, who has been watching the whole scene quietly.

“Yes.”

I hated him when he threatened to take my chance of my being with my son.

I hated how he looked like he was barely holding back the feeling of murdering me.

But now I understand.

I would have done the same for my friend. Hell, Isabelle has been my best friend for only a few months, and she has already been to hell and back for me. I can imagine what that did to Luca after being at a threat of losing his friend and having his legacy ruined at once.

“I bet you're having a blast knowing I've fucked up.” I laugh in defeat.

“Not exactly.”

I find that hard to believe. Luca thrives on being right.

“Why not?”

“Because my best friend is barely holding on. There is nothing blast about that.”

Right.

Guilt.

Guilt is an ugly feeling that slowly eats you up until you're nothing but a shell. You start giving yourself excuses hoping they will save you but even those are never enough.

Alex may have hurt me in the past but he also saved me. Spent months trying to make up for his mistakes and yet I took all that and spit it in his face as I wished he was dead.

I feel my heart clench painfully in fear of that actually coming to pass.

I was angry and in truth even if he was the one to have taken the drug, I would never want him dead.

Fear grips me even harder as the realization sinks in my bones that he has no formula or drug to help him.

“It's not your fault.” Luca's voice pulls me back and I shake my head.

“It is. Maybe I even triggered it. Everything is falling apart. Everyone hates me, Luca. The hospital looks at me differently. I hid the one thing they have been desperate about. I bet they believe I accused Alex because I'm obsessed with him and want his attention. I even messed up surgery today!” Tears roll down my face as my heart clenches painfully.

Everything I've been holding on to comes crashing down and my shoulders shake with sobs not caring about the fact that I'm not alone.

I should run to the hospital where Alex is but what will I do when I'm there?

The formula is missing so unless they find a heart donor in less than a week, he…

Oh God!

This is my fault.

“Athena. Look at me.” Luca commands but I shake my head as my heart keeps clenching painfully. “Look at me.”

I look up, barely seeing him since my tears are bluring him.

“Alex loves you. Hell, he will kill me for what I did to you once his awake. There is no way he would blame you for any of what happened. You're a victim and I too know that. I had to use force because that was the only way you would come with me and listen to Zayan’s confession.

I could have drugged you but that would be crossing a line. I know everything is falling apart. But I guess that's so it can all align. The father of your son needs you to believe in yourself now more than ever. That's the only way you'll have a head clear enough to save him.”

“Do you regret threatening me with Rayen?”

He shakes his head.

“No. I was willing to do whatever it took to get you here.”

I nod.

A painful groaning sound reaches our ears making us both turn to face Zayan who had passed out and is just waking up.

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