Bound by lies Trapped by Desire novel Chapter 48

Chapter 48

Bena’s POV:

My skin was warm from the steams in the bathroom or maybe it was the heat from the kiss. But inside, I felt like I was breaking open in a hundred quiet

Nikolai’s fingers trailed down my clothed spine, slow and reverent, I could feel the weight of his gaze on me. It should have been comforting–his touch, the heat, the closeness. But my heart was a riot.

Thated this

Not him

This

The storm in my chest that refused to calm. The way it’s words clung to me like second skin. The way I hated myself for letting them crawl under that

( wasn’t this person. I wasn’t someone who used sex to hide from herself, Was It

But what else could I do? I didn’t have a choice. I hadn’t had one in a long time.

Marrying Nikolai wasn’t a decision born from love or lust. It was desperation. For my mother. For survival

So what did that make me?

His hand found the zipper of my dress and slowly pulled it down. The sound was deafening. The fabric slipped down my arms, pooling at my feet. Nikolai picked it up carefully and hung it over the brass handle of the shower door, like it mattered. Like I mattered

I felt his fingers reach up behind my head and loosen the silver clip I’d used to hold my hair in place. The strands fell around me in a curtain.

He paused. His hand still in my hair,

Then he turned me to face him.

His eyes searched mine, deeply, like he was scanning for a fault ling.

“What’s wrong?”

I shook my head. I didn’t have the words. I couldn’t. I asked him for more, if I reached for anything beyond this bubble we had created, I knew I’d fall.

Deaned into his tour. Just enough.

“liko,” I whispered.

Nothing else.

That was enough. We both knew the code by now. As long as I said his name this way. He knew what I wanted.

He passed only for a second before his mouth found mine with a kind of desperation that didn’t match the softness of his grip. I could feel him holding him back, like he thought I needed comfort, hot conquest.

But that wasn’t what I needed. Not now. Not tonight

I needed to forget

“Don’t be gentle,” I said against he lips. My voice was quiet Hoarse. Please. Just don’t go easy on me.”

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Chapter 48

He pulled back, just slightly his brow bowed. “Are you une?

Trodded, barely. “Please, Niko“||

That was all it took

dev’t want to think anymore. I was so tired of thinking I wanted someone else to hold the reins.

A crack flickered thrinugh his restraint and he surged forward, capturing my mouth in a kiss that knocked the breath from my lungs. His teeth grazed my lower lip as his hands, gripped my waist, hard enough to leave marks. That was what I wanted. That pressure. That sense of being pinned to the moment,

unable to think

od his way down my jaw, his breath hot against my skin, trailing lower until he bit down at the curve of my neck. I shuddered,

Then he stopped back slightly, and his voice dropped low

blinked, confused. “What?”

His hands found my shoulders and gently, but firmly, guided me down.

knees hit the tile.

The sight in front of me made my breath hitch.

He was hard. And close. I looked up at him and for the umpteenth time, I didn’t see the playful devil–may–care Nikolai, I saw the man who had held me, who’d fucked me multiple times. Made me cry tears of pleasure. Who made me writhe beneath him in ecstasy and pain intermingled with each other.

He watched me with a clenched jaw. His cock twitched as he brought one hand to his shaft and stroked it slowly before tapping it once–twice–against my cheek.

“Get to work, Malishka,” he said, his voice rough

Soidic.

I leaned in, pressing a slow kiss to the tip, tasting him, tracing the shape of him with my tongue. He grunted softly. His fingers tightened in my hair. I took more of him, inch by inch.

“No teeth,” he hissed. “Use your tongue. Do a good job, and I’ll fuck you till you can’t stand.”

Ashiver ran up my spine. I hated how much I liked that

Or maybe liked ha

hating it.

I didn’t know anymore.

I wrapped my fingers around the base, and slowly, I took him deeper. My throat fought it, but I pushed through. My hands clutched his thighs. I felt powerful and powerless all at once.

Then i patrid

at me

it was too much. I started to pull back, coughing slightly, but his hand caught me by the shoulder immediately, not harshly, and he knelt slightly to look

“Are you okay?”

I nodded. My eyes watered, but I didn’t want him to stop

“You don’t have to “he started, but I cut him off.

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Chapter 4

den want you to stop tvrnil, even

Now a long moment. Then he said, “Then how do I know if you really do want to stop? I need to know

took a breath. “If we keep doing this–and you want it like this, like this level of control we need rules. A way for you to tell me if you’re truly not okay”

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