Don't get close to me (Linda and Beast) novel Chapter 62

I looked up as the door opened. I saw Diesel and Amber walk in. Amber tried to sit next to me. "What do you think you are doing?"

"I was going to sit next to you."

"That chair belongs to Shawn."

"Did you tell Shawn we had lunch together"

"I glared over at her."

"Where is Shawn, Blade?"

"I heard that she has not been around the club or seen at the cabin for a few days."

"That is none of your business. Get out of your mind that I will cheat on Shawn, Amber."

"I am going home" I said.

I opened the door and walked in locking it. I looked around the cabin. I made myself a sandwich and sat down at the table. I can't sleep in our bed. Not without Shawn.

I grabbed a beer and walked over to the couch and sat down. I looked up to see Shawn walking out the door carrying a quilt. I watched as she sat down in the rocking chair.

I hung my head and looked at the floor. I miss her laughter, our love making, her smiles. I miss her. I messed up. In five years, I never failed to call her to let her know I would be late and why.

I never missed lunch or supper with Shawn or star, and I never missed spending the weekend with them. Not until I had lunch with Amber.

I admit it felt good having another woman look at me with lust. But, I will never cheat on Shawn. my mind said, but you did cheat on her.

You might not have had sex with her, but you invited her to have lunch with you, instead of going home and eating with your wife and daughter.

Over at the cabin Amber looked at Blaze. "You do know he invited me to have lunch with him?"

"We know all about that. How you made sure to run into him as he was getting ready to get on his bike." Luna said.

"And I know he never told Shawn about that."

"I wonder why?"

"Amber you are fooling yourself if you think he will fuck you. He won't."

"I want him and I will do whatever it takes to get him."

"No Amber you won't, Diesel said."

"Let's go. We are leaving, You are never to come here again."

Back at the cabin I have had enough. I stood up and walked out the door. "Shawn, we need to talk."

I didn't look at him. "Shawn please."

I turned my head and looked up at Blade. "I am sorry. I was sitting on my bike to come home for lunch when Amber walked over to me."

"Yes, I asked her to have lunch with me."

"I should never have done it."

"You cheated on me."

"You may not of had sex with her, but you cheated."

"You asked another woman to have lunch with her."

"You never called me to tell me why you would not be home for lunch."

"You did not come home until 1am."

"Again, no phone call to tell me where you were and you would be late."

"I did not cheat on her."

"Yes, you did. You cheated by asking Amber to have lunch with you, instead of going home to eat with Shawn and Star."

" She told me she would give me a divorce and not contest it."

It got quiet.

"She what?"

"She said she would give me a divorce, that since I asked Amber to have lunch with me, I don't call to tell her when I will be late, I don't spend the weekend with Star anymore."

"She left herself out of that part."

"She told me that she can't live with a man who sneaks around, and she can't stay married to a man that wants to be with another woman."

"She told me that she hated me because I choose to have lunch with Amber instead of my family."

"She told me she will remain in the cabin with the children and I would live over here."

"Man, Blade. Your are just as bad as Spider."

"Why the hell did you ask Amber to have lunch with you?"

"I liked the idea of another woman wanting me."

"You cheated."

"She is not going to forgive you that easily."

"She trusted you, Blade. You broke that trust."

"You hurt her. Now she can't even trust her own feelings."