Ex-Husband's Regret (Ava and Rowan) novel Chapter 14

We stand there after that. I was shifting from one foot to another feeling hella awkward. He stares at me, his blue eyes searching my soul. I shift my gaze to avoid his penetrating one.

“Ethan” Someone calls and I turn to see another officer motioning to him.

“Coming” Ethan shouts before turning to me. “I’m happy to see you beautiful, I’ll see you around, yeah?”

“Yeah” I mumble.

With that he, gives me an unexpected hug before walking away. I’m left there wondering what the hell just happened.

I shake myself from the stupor after a while and begin walking. I needed to buy some grocery and since the store wasn’t that far from school, I decide to walk.

The sling was removed and even though my shoulder was sore and sometime ached, it was still functional. I thought about everything I needed to buy but at the forefront was my interaction with Ethan.

The way he treated me was so different from how Rowan treated me that I wasn’t sure what to make of it. I’ve never had anyone tell me I’m beautiful. Nor have I ever had a man even wink at me.

The few interactions I’ve heard with Ethan made me feel like I was actually attractive but I also knew I couldn’t count on that. I mean if my own husband didn’t find me attractive then how could other men think that I am?

‘Stop being silly’ I laugh at myself.

It honestly fucking hurts. I thought that I was past this but I wasn't. I felt like my heart was breaking all over again and I didn't know how to stop the hurt that threatened to drown me.

As if sensing my gaze on him, he turns and looks in my direction. His laugh dies and the smile he once had disappears and a frown takes its place. I guess that I bring nothing but sorrow to him. No wonder he never smiled around me.

He faces my direction, looking as if he was about to cross the street to come towards me. I push those thoughts away. That was just wishful thinking on my part.

Quickly averting my gaze, I get inside the nearest cab and we drive off. I don’t look outside the window. Refusing to watch them anymore.

It was clear he already moved on. So quickly at that. But then he never loved me so I guess it’s easy for him. It was time I moved on too. I don’t care how long it’ll take but I will eventually move on and find my happiness. Rowan was my past, it was time to accept that.