Ex-Husband's Regret (Ava and Rowan) novel Chapter 220

Chapter 0220

I always wondered what authors talked about when they said “earth shattering k*ss‘. This was it.

My senses really have left the building because I grab the back of his head and deepen the k*ss. It’s like I couldn’t get enough of him and I just wanted more. Even Ethan’s k*sses didn’t feel this way.

I get lost in his k*ss as he devours my mouth. This was exactly what I always dreamed of. I always wanted Rowan to k*ss me like he wanted me. This what I’d wanted from him every time he came home from work or left in the morning. This was what I wanted every time we made love. We never got that though. Not

because I didn’t try, but because he never wanted me.

“You tried being a descent F*** but you weren’t even good at it. Every time I was inside you, it’s Emma | wanted, it’s Emma I imagined beneath me. Every time I cummed, it’s her face I saw. You were nothing

special, just easy and so I used you. I used you like the F***ing slut you are

The words he flung at me a couple of months ago hit my head like a wrecking ball. I wrench myself from

his hands, as the words play over and over in my head. Tormenting me now, like they did when I first

heard them from his mouth.

I was breathing hard as I stared at him.

“Ava?” he calls in confusion

“Every time I was inside you, it’s Emma I wanted, it’s Emma I imagined beneath me” I quote his words. You were nothing special, just easy and so I used you like the F***ing slut you are”

“Ava” he tries again, his voice barely above a whisper.

My tears start filling and obstructing my view of him.

That’s what you said to me. You said I was nothing but an easy F*** and a place holder for your precious Emma

Why the hell did it still hurt? Is it because he k*ssed me like he wanted me when in reality we know that he never cared for me?

“Listen to me, Ava. Please” he begs, but I don’t see him. The only thing I see is his face twisted into a mean glare as he shattered my heart with those words.

Please leave, Rowan

I

Instead, he gives me a small smile before he quietly leaves. The moment I hear his car leave, I lock my

door and rush upstairs to my room.

After changing I get into my bed and will my tired mind to sleep. I still couldn’t believe that I k*ssed

Rowan. It felt so damn good and that’s what scares me.

It’s easy to give in to this new version of him, but I can’t because no matter what I can’t risk getting hurt

by him again and we all know if there is something Rowan is good at, it’s hurting me.