Ex-Husband's Regret (Ava and Rowan) novel Chapter 39

I sniff the roses feeling grateful. Rowan has never once bought me flowers. Hell, he has never treated me like I was important to him. In his mind, I was an inconvenience that he had a child with.

“Let me just put them in water and then we can leave” I turn around and head to the kitchen.

After putting the flowers in a vase, we leave.

I was both nervous and excited at the same time. I didn’t know what to do or say. I mean what do you do during dates? What do you talk about? And who is supposed to start the conversation. I was so out of my element that I was afraid I was going to mess things up.

“Is it weird that I’m scared shitless, though I’ve gone on more dates than I can count?” Ethan asks, breaking the silence.

I laugh. Feeling relieved. The anxiety that had caged me fades away.

“Not at all…I was also hyperventilating. I’ve been nervous the whole day.” I confess. “It made it hard to focus on my classes”

Though my students were happy to have me back. They could tell that my mind was else where. They even called me out on my abnormal behavior.

“I had to file a report repeatedly because I kept messing it up” he chuckles and I grin at him.

It eased my anxiety knowing that I wasn’t the only one that was nervous.

We talk about how our days were and I couldn’t help but think how easy things were between us. This was how things should have been with Rowan. Instead he decided that the only one good enough was Emma. He decided that I didn’t deserve a chance.

“We’re here” Ethan says.

I look at the place where we had parked. The restaurant’s name was familiar but I’d never eaten there before. I was also curious because it looked fancy.

“I heard the food here was great so I thought we could try it” he tells me as he turns off the engine.

Getting out, he rounded the car then came and opened the door. He helps me down and leads me inside. His hand at my lower back.

If I remember correctly, he told me his dad wasn’t in the picture.

“Yes, my mother was a drug addict and she overdosed after I was born. When the FBI took out my dad, I was put into the system. I thought that was the end for me but it wasn’t. A few months later I got lucky and got adopted by a really wonderful couple”

I was mesmerized by him. The more I got to know him, the more I liked him.

“In other words, you’re trust fund baby?” I joke making him laugh.

“You could say that but if we are being honest, then you’re also a trust fund baby” he fires back at him.

I laugh but it’s forced. How do I tell him he couldn’t be anymore wrong without revealing how messed up my past was.

Sure, father was rich but when shit between me, Emma and Rowan went down, he cut me off completely. He took my trust fund and cut me off his will. According to him, I didn’t deserve anything from him after what I did to his princess.