Ex-Husband's Regret (Ava and Rowan) novel Chapter 54

Ava.

I am still recovering from my attack. I am mentally and physically battered and I just want all this to be over. Three times someone has tried to kill me. Three times I managed to survive. I just don’t know when my luck will run out because at this point whoever wants me dead seems hell-bent on making sure I don’t see Noah again.

I shiver when I remember how close to meeting my maker I had been. He had been right there in my house. He’d planned to rape me there before killing me. Tears fill my eyes and it takes everything in me not to let them fall.

I’ve cried enough this past few days. I was tired of it, but I just didn’t understand why. Why would anyone want me dead? I haven’t wronged anyone, well except for Emma. Even with her, she was now with Rowan so that should have absolved me of my sins. I didn’t deserve what was happening to me.

My greatest fear was that they succeed. It would mean that I don’t get to see my boy growing up. That I would miss all the milestones in his life and it saddened me. The thought of that potential future broke my heart into a million different pieces.

“Are you okay miss?” someone asks me.

I look up to find an elderly woman staring at me with concern. Her kind eyes assessing my face. It was still a bit bruised but at least the swelling had gone down. Now I just had the healing lip, black eye and purple cheek.

“I’m okay, thank you” I try to smile, but I just don’t feel like it.

I’ve been in a kind of funk since my attack happened. I’m just going through the motions. Nothing feels real, it all just feels like a bad dream. I was still waiting for myself to wake up. Deep down I know that this is real, but a part of me thinks if just pretend then it will all go away.

“You don’t look okay…Do you want me to call someone for you?” she asks.

If only everyone was like this woman, then the world would be a better place. I’m a stranger to her, yet she approached me in the middle of an isle in a store because she noticed that I was losing it.

“There is no need. I’m okay, just a bit overwhelmed” I assure her.

She looks at me skeptically. I force myself to smile. I was grateful for her concern, but I just wanted to be left alone.

She gets closer and squeezes my hand. “Things will get better. Always have faith”

“I’m not trying to achieve anything just stating facts. I wouldn’t be surprised if whoever wanted you dead was a woman you tried stealing her man, after all, that’s what you are good at. Stealing other women’s men because you’re a slut”

I run my eyes down her body then back up. She looked elegant and impeccable like always while I looked like I had gone a few rounds with a MMA fighter.

“All these years and you still tell me the same things, don’t you ever come up with something new? It’s tiring hearing the same shit over and over again” I mock.

She looks at me shocked. Probably because I talked back. It’s something I’ve never done. Always afraid of fighting back and getting on Rowan’s bad side. This time though, I had nothing to lose.

She recovers quickly and gives me an evil smile. “How does it feel to lose Rowan? Does it hurt knowing that he’s with your sister right now?”

Of course it hurts, sometimes, but I’m slowly starting to let go of him. I’m slowly starting to kill the love I have for him. It also helps that Ethan distracts me from thoughts of my ex-husband.