HIS DOE, HIS DAMNATION (An Erotic Billionaire Romance) novel Chapter 125

Meadow’s POV:

His brows furrowed and something flashed in his eyes. He started to step forward again. “Meadow, wait-”

“I don’t want you to feel me, Alaric,” I snapped. I hated the person I became whenever he touched me. And truthfully, I really didn’t want him to feel me. I didn’t want to see that relief in his eyes that I saw anytime his skin even so much as grazed mine.

I wanted him to suffer, just as I was suffering.

Alaric shook his head. “Don’t do that, Meadow. Don’t do that to me. Punish me however you want, but don’t deny me your touch.”

My heart clenched so hard I had to physically reach for my chest as if it was going to fix anything. My eyes burned. “Why?” My voice cracked. “That’s not what you really wanted from me, is it?”

“Meadow, that’s not-”

“Answer me this, Alaric,” I cut in, thankful that he wasn’t moving toward me anymore. His hands were curled into tight fists, like he was trying to physically restrain himself. “Why did you decide to marry me? To get your revenge, is that it?”

“It’s much more complicated than that.”

“Then explain it to me!” I snapped. “Explain to me why you married me even though you knew my father was your father’s murderer!” Crossing my arms in front of my chest, I continued. “I don’t understand… I–I don’t…” My chest heaved. “Even if you could feel me, Alaric. Even if women like me are hard to come by, why on earth would you-”

“It is exactly because women like you are hard to come by, Meadow,” Alaric cut in. My gaze snapped to his. I still couldn’t read the expression on his eyes, but his voice was colder now. “It’s why I needed to have you. It’s why I couldn’t do what I originally planned to do.”

My lips parted but no words came out. My brain was having a difficult time coming up with words. What was I supposed to say to this? To the fact that Alaric wanted to punish me for my father’s sins and changed his mind all because he could feel me?

What could anyone say to that?

“What is it you wanted to do to me, then?”

His jaw clenched. “I don’t know.”

“What do you mean you don’t know?” I yelled, running my hand through my hair. I wanted to pull at it hard enough that my scalp would hurt.

I wanted to feel the kind of physical pain that would blur over the emotional one.

“You stalked me for months, Alaric. You told me that yourself. And now you say you don’t know what you wanted to do to me?”

My vision blurred. God. I was so stupid. He stalked me for months, of course, he knew who I was. Of course, he was just pretending not to. He was a good liar.

He was such a good liar. And I was so gullible to all his lies.

Alaric finally stepped closer to me. This time, I didn’t stop him. But I still wasn’t going to let him touch me.

My gaze dropped to his busted lip. If he didn’t put some ice on that, it was going to get ugly tomorrow.

Oh god. I cared too much about him.

“Yes,” he replied, lowering his voice. Guilt flashed in his eyes but it was gone quicker than it came. “I kept tabs on you and your sister for months, but I’m not telling you lies, Meadow. I didn’t know what I wanted to do, I just… I watched you, and after you touched me by accident, I had to have you. Needed to have you.”

My stomach twisted, bile rising up my throat. I let out a scoff. “Bullshit. You wanted to punish my sister and I for my father’s sins. It’s why you kept her locked up in that facility for so long, isn’t it?”

“I kept her locked up because she hurt you, Meadow.”

I looked away from him, feeling a fresh wave of tears rise to the surface. “If you wanted her to get what she deserved because she hurt me, you’d have had the police arrest her. But that’s not what you did. You wanted her to suffer. Stuffed her with so much drugs that she couldn’t even think properly, drugs that made her insane!”

‘More than she already was anyway,‘ something at the back of my mind said. I shook my head to chase that thought. “I never understood why you hated her so much and didn’t even listen to me when I asked you to let her…”

I trailed off as realization slowly washed over me.

“Clarissa.” I whispered. There was no need hiding anything now the cat was already out of the bag. “She told me she convinced you to let Juniper go.”

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