Sebastian’s POV
I couldn’t fucking get Iris’s words to Thea out of my head. That day, I’d come home early, hoping to spend some time alone with Thea. What I hadn’t expected was to overhear Iris telling Thea that she had been falling in love with Kane.
That pain was like nothing I’d felt before. I saw red, my wolf howling and nearly taking over. While I’d always hated Thea and Kane’s relationship, I’d convinced myself it was purely physical. Just sex. Nothing more.
The fact that she had been falling in love with him hurt worse than knowing she’d fucked him. Learning she had begun to imagine a future with that man nearly killed me.
I masked my pain with anger. How could I tell her that the mere possibility of her having a shred of love for Kane had shattered my soul into bloody pieces? That kind of pain was too hard to articulate.
The “what ifs” circled relentlessly in my brain, refusing to give me a moment’s peace. I couldn’t help wondering what would have happened if Kane hadn’t tried to kill Thea. Would she be with him now? Would her love for me have been completely replaced by her love for him? Would she have forgotten me entirely, just as she now couldn’t remember others?
“Sebastian!” The shout yanked me back to reality.
I stared at my brother Damien in confusion, not even aware he’d entered my office. I’d been so lost in my thoughts I hadn’t heard him come in.
“What is it?” I straightened the papers in front of me and pushed them aside.
He crossed the room and sat down in front of my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for over five minutes.”
I said nothing. What was there to say? I’d been distracted for days, all because of Thea. She occupied my every waking thought. I was like a junkie craving my favorite drug, completely addicted to her.
She was so deeply embedded in my soul that even if I wanted to, I couldn’t remove her.
The Last Fucking Straw (Part 1)
And I wouldn’t–my wolf and I both absolutely claimed her as ours now, and we would never leave her.
“I can see something’s bothering you,” he said, giving me that scrutinizing look I hated.
“Want to share?”
This was hard as fuck. How could I tell him I was so insecure about Thea’s feelings for Kane? I had never been an insecure person, but with Thea, I was. I wasn’t ashamed to
admit that to myself.
I got up restlessly and walked to the floor–to–ceiling windows, staring out at the sun setting over the nearby lake.
“Sebastian.”
Sighing. I turned to face him. “I don’t even know where to start.”
“I’m guessing it’s about Thea?” he asked.
I ran my hand through my hair, messing it up completely.
“Yeah.
“You know you can tell me anything… so what’s wrong?”
I only hesitated for a second before telling him everything. I couldn’t keep this shit inside
anymore. Not when it was driving me fucking insane.
As always, he sat patiently and listened until I finished. He wouldn’t judge or input his
opinion until I was done.
When I finished, I sank back in my chair, watching him. His expression was thoughtful. I was desperate to hear what he had to say, what advice he could offer, because I was about
My wolf growled in my mind. Kill the threat, mark her, make her completely ours. The impulse was strong, but I knew that wasn’t the solution. I’d made too many mistakes already trying to solve problems with power and control.
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