Into Darkness novel Chapter 14

Oh god.

"Holy f*ck this is embarrassing" I wanted to hide under my blanket and never come back out.

"Hey, calm down. It's nothing to be embarrassed about, everyone pees and poops" He said, laughing slightly and this made me blush even more.

"Oh f*ck me" I groaned and he laughed.

"I'd love to, but I'm pretty sure the idiot doctor wants you to rest" He smirked and I hit the back of his head with my palm, making him laugh even harder.

"That was pathetic" He mocked me and I stuck my tongue out.

"However, my leg feels pretty okay. It doesn't hurt as long as no one touches it or I move it" I ever so smoothly changed the subject, the consequence being Lou rolling his eyes.

"Who's Nora?" I then asked hesitantly, I didn't want to upset him.

"She was my little sister"

I froze at the words were and looked down at my hands.

"I'm sorry" I quietly mumbled and he shook his head.

"Wait, how do you even know of her?" He asked, scrunching his face.

"Err... You were kinda screaming a few nights ago and I ran into your room... Well tried at least, and you were moving and sweating. I tried to wake you up and you eventually calmed down... Then you said something about how I reminded you of her... Nora" I whispered the last part, it felt to personal to say out loud.

"Oh" Was all he said, he looked down at my hands and I gulped.

"She was only 6 years old" He choked out and I felt my heart brake.

"You don't have to-" I started but he cut me off.

"No, I want to tell you. You've been so honest about your family and I need to talk about this" His voice broke at the end and I grabbed his hand.

"It's been killing me" He whispered and I gave him a sad smile.

"I was sitting in the kitchen, cooking pasta carbonara, Nora's favorite food, I was on holiday from College and I hadn't been home for over a month... My parents were in the garden, trimming the grass and watering flowers... And then I heard screaming. I immediately ran to the window and looked out, that's when I saw a Zombie for the first time. I freaked and grabbed a knife out of the cabinet. I grabbed Nora's hand and ran out of the house, to see if my parents were alright" He took a deep breath and I gulped.

"They weren't" I could see him, trying to hold his tears back and I squeezed his hand.

"There were more Zombies, at least 10. And it only kept coming more and more... Nora cried when she saw the zombies eating my parents organs and I wanted to, but I had to stay strong for Nora. She was holding my hand so tight, and we started to run away, she got up on my back and we ran with everyone else, towards the forest... But then someone, a zombie, grabbed her. And pulled her off me. I tried to-" He stopped, his eyes were filled with tears and he was sobbing and so was I.

I didn't know Lou that well, but he seemed like a pretty closed off person and I felt honored that he wanted to open up to me.

"I tried to save her, but... The zombie, he snapped her neck" He had stopped sobbing and was only looking at me with pleading eyes. I was full on crying though.

"He snapped a six year olds neck, she had barely seen the world. She was too young, too- too pure and innocent"

I kept quiet, not knowing what to say.

'I'm sorry' wasn't enough.

"It's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry. The only thing that isn't okay... Is to give up. You have to believe that life is still worth living, because if you don't. You'll never be able to move on and live a happy life" We were looking each other and I realized that he was leaning in.

While I was in a diaper.

Omfg.

Do I want this?

You have to decide.

Lucas or Lucas.

Heheh.

Staph it and concentrate.

Our lips were only millimeters away and I decided to go with the moment.

Our lips just brushed when someone slammed the door opens and I jerked away.

"HÓLA BITCHATCHOS I BROUGHT PIZZAAAAA" Oliver yelled as he entered and I blushed, but covered it up with a laugh.

Lou shared the same expression and in a way, I was happy that Oliver had intervened.

And when I think about it... I don't have to choose. I can be a single ass bitch if I want.

A strong and independent woman.

Hell yeah.

But then again.

They're pretty hot.

Oh god damn it.

But you can't lead them both on.

That's awful to both of them.

Someone needs to slap me.

"Where did you get pizza?" I stupidly asked him and he raised his eyebrows.

"F*cking Santa gave it to me, what do you think?" He sarcastically remarked and I flipped him off with a smile.

Soon everyone was here and they were sitting around the bed on madrases and pillows, having it rather cozy.

I did really appreciate everyone being here and keeping me company.

I hadn't really been able to look at either Lucky or Lou though.

I blushed when I looked at Lou and I felt guilt when I looked at Lucky.

Which was stupid, since we actually weren't together, we weren't even dating.

"Herr you gooo" Loren said, as she handed me a plate with a few pizza slices on.

"We'd been seeing each other for a few months, no we weren't together, but yes, I loved her. And I didn't tell you because I knew you'd flip out. Just like you're doing right now!" He was also pissed, he was glaring at his baby sister and she was returning the glare.

"No, if you would have told me from the beginning I wouldn't have been mad! You- I, I just never thought you would keep such a big thing from me" She stared down at the floor and I felt really awkward and uncomfortable.

I shared a look with Lou and I knew he felt the same.

"So... What about you Luke?" Oliver asked Lucky and I face palmed.

Idiot.

"I was, eh, fifteen. And I- I don't even want to tell you guys since it was so awful..."

Fifteen, holy crap.

"C'mon mate" Colton pushed him to admit and he sighed.

"Before I tell you, just know that I'd never do something like that now. I was young and incredibly stupid" He looked like he was in pain and I wondered what could have been so bad.

"I was pretty popular in my school, I had a lots of girls chasing me and all that. And one night my friends dared me to take a girl in our class's virginity. And I accepted the challenge. She was already crushing on me, so I took her on a few dates and then she gave in. And that's how I lost my virginity and took hers" When he finished telling the story, we were all quiet.

I couldn't believe what I'd just heard.

He took a girls virginity as a bet?

This is just like 'After' holy f*ck.

"I still regret it and I would travel back in time and change it if I could" He added, but the damage was already done.

I couldn't look him in the eyes and everyone was still sitting quiet.

"That's truly awful" I choked out, snapping everyone out of their dazes.

"I know" He shortly answered, I could tell that he felt regret and was sorry for what he did.

But still.

How could anyone ever do that?

"We should probably try to sleep now, it's getting pretty late" Loren whispered, probably regretting her question.

I just nodded and leaned back in the bed.

I looked down at Lou, he was just next to me on a madras and he was wearing a frown.

When he noticed me staring, he looked up at me and we made eye contact.

He smiled an emotionless smile and I closed my eyes, trying to forget everything I just heard.

"Good night" I heard Loren say as she turned off the lights.

"Good night" Oliver and Colton answered and after that the only thing I could hear was everyone breathing.

This wasn't how I'd thought the night would turn out.