Lie To Me novel Chapter 19

"Seriously speaking, I realized that you're right, I shouldn't have caged myself in that situation anymore. I'm following your sermons to me and Hans, and you're right again that I can't get out of this situation over and over again. I'll run. " I paused then smiled at her. "I was able to leave then, why can't I do it now? I am now ready and willing, just to calm my heart." I said.

I'm going to face it now.

She smiled too. "Good luck then, I hope this time you can really do it."

"Why not?" I said, arching my brows.

"I know you; I know how fragile you are." She said and laughed afterwards.

"Come on, who knows, when Russel started crying and begging you to come back, you’ll give in. That, one 'I miss you, Love. I still love you' and you'll be crawling back." She added.

I rolled my eyes.

Sometimes, I just want to swear on her.

"You're stupid in that part too." I said. Laughed well.

I shook my head.

"I've learned. It's not because we love that we will accept all their foolishness. Feelings are too precious to be ignored and wasted." I said.

Enough is enough.

I already learned my lesson, in a very hard way.

Reysa did not comment on that. She just shook her head then smiled at me more.

I know she believes in me. Even though it has taken so long, I am often very annoyed because my complaint is pure but nothing is being done. She stayed patient on me and waited for me to be this decided. I know I will always get my back and I to her too.

But then, through that, I learned that the only reason that kept me to be like this is I was still seeking for answers.

Your answer to the reasons he can't answer.

But not now, little by little, I get it when I can’t really get it and I don’t want to insist anymore.

I will not be blessed e. Even if I surrender to him and the sea cries, he still has nothing to answer. He still can't tell me why I'm still not enough after all I've done.

He said I was more than enough, but still, he chose to cheat on me.

Just really stupid.

And no matter what his plan is to approach me, I'll make sure I don't lose in the end.