Lie To Me novel Chapter 33

"I know you won't believe it. But I really love you. I love you so much."

"You love me but you managed to kiss that woman? Were you happy when you saw me crying because I caught you?" I said sarcastically.

"No, Jia. I wasn't happy to see you crying and hurting. But Jasmin, she approached me when she found out about us. She wanted me back." He said.

Fuck you, motherfuckers!

"I told you why we broke up, didn't I? She cheated on me and then dropped me like of a garbage. I was hurt. I loved her, but how can she do that to me? Is there something wrong with me? Have I not done enough for her?" He said.

"You know the feeling but you still did it to me." I said, getting more hurt hearing his confession.

It happened to him, he knew how painful it was but still, he done it to me too.

What a fucking bastard.

"I was really wrong; I know that so well. I fucked up. But when she came over and said she would come back to me if I left you, all the pain came back. My love for you was covered of pain and resentment that I became blind." He said.

"I want revenge, I want to make her feel what she made me feel. So, I thought, I’ll make her fall. And when she’s too in love, that when I'll leave. I'll drop her like what he did to me.” She added.

Fucking asshole…

"I did. She fell in love with me again and became desperate for us to separate. She followed us here, forcing me to end it with you and have our relationship again. I thought I was winning, I thought I could get revenge. I am. But I was wrong. I was very wrong because in the end I am the loser again, I lost you. You disgust me. "

"You lied to me, Russel. Over and over and for the same reason. You made me feel irrelevant, undeserving and worthless. But even so, I still repeatedly forgave you and loved you more. Maybe when you feel I love you more, you can realize you're wrong. You can think that you love me back too. I waited. I waited for you to realize that, but it never happened. In the end, I was the only one who realized that it was impossible for me to dream. "

He shook his head.

"I loved you so much. Everything I said, did and made you feel. It's all true. I was just blinded by revenge but I love you so much. I'm sorry if I failed to make you happy while you were with me. "I'm sorry I failed you. I accept that I won't really be given another chance. And I deserved it. I'm a fool. I just hurt you." Ani n'ya.

He cupped my face and wiped my tears. He kissed me on my forehead like he used to do before.

"Be happy, Jia. Don't be afraid because I won't bother you anymore." He said with a painful smile.

It pains me more.