Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 24

Sehnsucht

- a painful desire for something or for someone particularly if there's no hope to attain the desire or when its attainment is uncertain; wistful longing

Origin: German

24

It was still drizzling outside but not as heavy as a while ago and it was right on time when Nick and Alec were done eating dinner. I was just quiet the entire time when the two of them were eating and Aries were talking to them too, joining Nick and Alec's conversation. They were talking about the foods that Tracy likes and the things they need to prepare for her. Nick's hand has finally left my thigh and I was just finishing on my glass of water.

"We better go before the rain pours hard down again." Alec says.

The four of us starts standing up, Nick stands while finishing his glass of orange juice as I stood right next to him.

"I'll just drive Savannah back to her dorm then I'll catch up with you guys on buying the foods for Saturday and--" Aries said.

"I'll drive her." Nick cut him off.

Alec and Aries glanced at me, but I think I looked guilty in front of them and then they stared at Nick. He looked at them impassively. He's so good at hiding his emotions all to himself. I just stared at my feet while we were both heading to the door. Nick gazed at me and I don't know why he wants to drive me back to the dorm. But I want him to instead of Aries. I want to spend some time with him.

Just me and Nick.

"I need to get the borrowed book from her." Nick added.

"Oh. Yeah." I snapped.

I'm glad he remembered cos I totally forgot the moment I saw him.

He glanced at me. "Then I'll catch up with you guys. Text me."

Alec stares at Nick then looks over at me then back at Nick before smiling at himself. Aries just stares at Nick the entire time. I don't know what Alec is thinking but I hope he's not sensing something between me and his best friend. Alec pulled his head up still smiling at us.

"Alright. Let's go Aries." Alec starts heading out of the door and ran towards his car.

I stared at Aries but he's still looking at Nick eagerly belter moving his eyes to me. He smiled. "Bye angel. See you tomorrow."

"Yeah. See you. Drive safely." I said.

Aries heads out of the door and ran towards his car under the rain. He followed Alec's tracks right away and the next second I feel Nick's piercing gaze shot at me. I looked up to him. "What?"

I was expecting him to at least get a little bit jealous or mad cos I was with Aries. I was expecting him to fire me questions. I was expecting him to ask me why I was with Aries, or why we were having dinner together, or how many times have I had dinner alone with Aries. But then I'm sure he won't give a damn about it. I'm sure he won't care at all.

"I've been wanting to tell you since a while ago that you look beautiful tonight but I just didn't have the chance." He smiled.

It was the first time I've seen Nick smile since the time he sat down on the table with us. I smiled sheepishly. Well that was a lot better than what I expected.

"You look beautiful tonight Savannah." He said sexily.

He starts taking off his black leather jacket and suddenly placing it over me my shoulders. He stands close in front of me and his height is towering over me while he was busy fixing the collar of his jacket.

"Wouldn't want you to get sick. If you're sick I may not be able to kiss you." He said.

Im smiling shyly. My head looking up at his face then his eyes resting down at me. All of a sudden he winked at me.

Holy.

Nick just winked at me.

He heads to the door and I just sheepishly follow him. He gestured his hand to let me pass first. "After you."

I head out and he followed me. We hurriedly ran towards his car under the rain and we were soaked the moment we climbed inside and my hair was wet. I moved my eyes to him and his white shirt was sticking on his body. I could see his muscles even on the dark, it's like illuminating and I've memorized his body. But then I looked down at myself and I was as soaked as he is.

Why is it that every time I'm wearing white I always get wet?

"God I'm so wet." I said as I take off his black leather jacket to me.

I noticed him staring at me so I looked back at him. He's smirking while grabbing the jacket from my hand.

"Why do you have such a dirty mind?" I ask him.

He chuckled. Right away he started the engine and drive. He was driving slow since the road was slippery and the rain was blurring the road as well. He was making sure we won't meet any accident. I kept gazing at him while he was driving seriously. I was expecting him to kiss me here in his car and we'd make out right on top of his driver's seat. I wanted to ask him where he was for tv past three days. I wanted to ask him who he was with. But I'm not allowed to ask. So I just exhaled heavily on my seat and just looked right outside of the car.

"Nick." I called out. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I need to know where he was.

"Yeah?" He answered while his eyes were straight to the road.

"Where were you for three days?" I asked.

"I did some important things. And I went to visit someone."

Someone?

Who?

Could it be Catherine?

"I thought you were busy with your exams and looking for a company for your internship application?" I asked.

"Tracy told you that?" He cocked his head to me briefly.

I nod.

"I did that as well but mostly it was visiting someone." He answered.

Why is my heart feeling a little pinch every time he's saying he visited someone? Why am I thinking of that someone is as a woman? It could possibly be a guy. But why am I thinking that it's Catherine? It could be her. It could possibly be her. But who is she? How is she related to him? How old is she? How does she look?

God! Why am I affected by it? Don't get affected Savannah. You can't get affected by what he's telling you. Whoever Catherine is to him, you're not allowed to care or know about what they have.

You're not allowed to get affected.

I look outside the window and the rain was pouring harder and harder like how my mind and my heart is battling.

"So you went out with Aries today." He blurted. Oh god I didn't expect him to say that. He's asking. Why?

I couldn't tell if he was jealous or he just really wanted to say that. Why? To get me to think that he's concerned?

"Yeah. He asked me out for dinner and he was right on time." I answered.

I waited for him to ask more about Aries. I wanted him to show that he's concerned for me. I wanted him to tell me to stay away from Aries cos he's a goddamn womanizer and that maybe he's just playing around with me. But he didn't speak anymore.

I sighed inwardly.

We were quiet again.

Awkward quiet. For me.

"But I need to go with Aries after class to buy a gift for Tracy." I said.

"I'll go with you then. I still need to buy a gift for her." He said cooly.

I was just smiling. I don't know why I'm smiling but he's going with me and Aries tomorrow. I wanted to ask him why but then I don't want to ruin his mood right now.

"I don't really have an umbrella with me but you can use my jacket and we need to run. Fast." He said.

"We?"

"Yeah. I wanna make sure you go in safe."

He opens his door and so did I. He ran close to me and he held up his leather jacket to cover us, but mostly me. Nick ignored how the rain got him even more soaked. He was making sure I get the bigger part of the leather jacket since I see his left arm now fully wet. We reached the shade of the dorm and he was flickering the droplets off his arm while he constantly runs his fingers through his wet hair.

The dorm security stares at us and I think Nick noticed it cos he was looking back at him. "What are you looking at?"

I quickly grabbed his wrist. "Nick."

He moved his head to me and I just smiled at the dorm security guard.

"You okay?" He asked, concern filling his eyes. Nick stop making me fall for you.

I'm not allowed to fall for you.

I nod. "Thanks."

"Alright. Goodnight Savannah."

I smile at him. "Goodnight Nick."

He runs back to his covering his head with his jacket and quickly went inside. I started marching my way into the dorm. I passed my two girls standing by the hallway who I think we're looking at us a while ago.

"Did Nick Wilde drop you off?" One ask.

I just nod.

"You're so lucky. We've never seen him with a girl before or even dropping off a dormer here aside from his sister." The other one added while smiling at me.

I just smiled at them.

"But you should be careful when you're with him." One blurted out.

They quickly left me after the other one said that and I think they regretted telling me that I need to be careful with him.

Why?

Is Nick hiding something from me?

Is there something more that I need to know about....

Nick Wilde?

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