Panimalos
Translation: revenge
Origin: Cebuano
50
"Trace?" I called out to her.
She sits on her bed as she looks back at me. Tracy was busy putting on her ankle boots, getting ready for another night out.
"You haven't talked to me for three days now since that night. I'm really sorry." I say.
She exhales. "I'm not mad at you Savannah. I'm mad at Nick."
I walked to Tracy and sat down right next to her. "You still haven't talked to him?"
"I did. The other day. I'm hurting for you too. When you told me you loved my brother, I just wanted to hold you cos he will only hurt you Savannah. He could never be giving you back that kind of love you feel for him." Tracy tells me.
I sigh.
"But I know that no matter how I tell you to stop with whatever you have with him, you won't listen to me." She added.
I smiled at her ruefully.
"Do you really love him?" She asks.
"Yeah." I answered softly.
Tracy hugs me tight right away as if she knows my pain. As if she had felt this kind of pain before. She rubs my back slowly and I wrapped my arms around her. Tracy was like an older sister to me and she treats me well.
"I love him so much Tracy... that I would do anything for him. I'll sacrifice everything for him even though it already hurts. I'll try to deal with the pain. I'll try to be strong for myself." I cried on her shoulder.
"Oh Savannah. I just couldn't stand seeing you getting hurt over Nick. I told you he's not capable of loving someone new anymore. The best advice I could give you is to give up what you feel for Nick. I'm sorry for being so blunt but I'm your friend. I need to tell it straight to your face that what you have with him will lead to nowhere. Why'd you even allow yourself to get involve?" She asks.
"I thought I could handle it. But it's gotten out of control. And right now I.." I answered.
I sigh heavily.
"I just need him. He makes me feel special." I said weakly.
She pulled herself away from me and wiped my tears. "Come with me. I'm going out and you need to party. At least have fun just for one night."
"Where?"
"The frat house."
I shake my head. "After that night, I haven't talked to Nick. I don't think I'm ready to face him."
"Don't worry. Nick isn't around today. He said he left for the weekend."
My brows creasing. "Where he went to?"
"I don't know. He didn't say."
I exhale. Here I go again, looking for him when he's not around. Here I go again, wondering where he might could've been by now. And here I go again, thinking that he's with Catherine by now, spending his weekend with her.
"So he's not gonna be there?" I asked.
She nods.
"Why are you avoiding Nick?" She asked.
"I don't know. I just feel the need to avoid him cos I thought you were so mad at me." I say.
Tracy smiled. "I'm not. I really wanna help you with Nick cos--"
"Don't. I know he's not gonna fall for me. I couldn't compete with Catherine and for the past eight years she's all he thinks about. I couldn't change that." I say.
She pushes my hair behind my ear.
"When are you gonna stop?" She asks.
"Once I've had enough." I say.
Tracy stands and pulls me up. "Let's stop being so melodramatic and head to the party. Shall we?"
I smile.
Both of us headed out of the room and climbed inside Romeo's car. I was just quiet while the others were singing to this Drake song on the stereo. My mind is still thinking about where Nick could be. We haven't had a formal conversation after we fought that night and I haven't seen him around too. I always worry when I don't see him cos it just means he's with Catherine and I always get mad at myself cos no matter how hard I try to convince my mind and my heart not to get jealous I always end up getting hurt.
"Hey angel!" I hear Aries calling out.
I smiled at him. "Hey Aries."
"What's with that look huh?" He pulls my chin up.
"Nothing. I'm just tired. I need to party. I need to drink."
"You've been a massive drinker lately."
I smiled and snatched the Margarita from his hand and drank it all. I know it was a Margarita cos it was what I drank when Nick snatched it from my hand when a guy offered it to me. I squint my eyes and feel my throat burning. I groan.
"And you take margaritas now too. You know what, let's take it easy. The night just started." He says.
I coughed. "God I needed that."
"How about we dance?" He asked.
I nod.
Aries pulls me to the dance floor and we were dancing to this wicked beat being played by the DJ. The streaks of red and blue were hitting on our faces. I feel Aries' hand holding onto my waist while I was grinding on him. I don't care who was watching. I don't care who will catch us. I don't care if his millions of admirers will get mad at me. I need to dance and forget about Nick and I could used Aries.
All the people around me that is close to Nick tells me to give him up. I know for myself I should give him up. I just don't know when and how to give him up. I don't know how to let him go. It's not easy.
Maybe in time, I'll get use to this pain but for how long am I gonna be a fool for Nick?
Here I am, sweating and still dancing with Aries. I'm enjoying. I'm having fun. I'm forgetting a little bit. Though Nick sometimes crosses my mind. The margarita is getting into my system. I'm feeling a little bit free and wild. I sprawled my arms around Aries' shoulders, wrapping it around his neck while I tease him.
"You're so wild tonight." He says.
"This is a side of me nobody knows."
Aries kissed my cheek. "I love it angel."
I gazed at the couch where we'd usually sit and everyone was getting ready for the spin the bottle. "Let's join them?"
Aries gazed at them. "Alright."
Both of us headed to where everyone was. I say down right next to Tracy while Aries was sitting down beside me.
"We're going to play as well." Aries says.
"Right on time for truth or dare." Penny says to us with a grin.
"Are you playing?" I asked Tracy.
"No. Clyde won't let me. Nick told him to babysit me." Tracy pouts.
I grinned. "Okay. I'm joining."
"Everyone in here?" Romeo calls out everyone's attention who'd still want to join our game.
Tracy handed me a drink and I accepted it then took a quick drink from it.
"I'll play."
Holy shit no.
I pulled my head up when I heard that voice and saw Nick joining us on the couch. Tracy and I stared at each other eagerly in synch. He was sitting down right across me. His usual spot, right beside Penny.
"What's he doing here?" I whisper to Tracy who looked shocked as well.
"I don't know. I have no idea why he's here. He said he's not around."
"Hey Nick. I thought you weren't around today." Penny flirts.
Nick didn't answer her.
"Let's start the game shall we?" Romeo asked everyone.
"How about...." Penny trails.
My eyes moved to Penny.
Please me.
Please.
Please
I gasped.
It stopped right in front of Penny! Are you fucking kidding me?! My mouth slightly opened and I see Alec and Tracy looking back at me. Their eyes were like asking if I could take it watching them kissing in front of me. Nick looked at my gaze but I quickly looked down. Penny is acting all nosy and excited. I see Nick from my peripheral view that Penny had grabbed his cheeks and pulled him closer to her mouth. I moved my head back to them and they were actually kissing. Nick is kissing her back. Nick is kissing Penny back.
I bite my inner cheek so I won't cry. Alec looked sorry and sad for me. Tracy looks mad at what is happening. Everyone was cheering and they are still kissing. My eyes was about to look away but then Penny started pulling herself up and sat down on Nick's lap while his hands were groping her ass. That bitch! Nick is groping Penny's ass! I choked a sob and feel Tracy's hand holding my hand. Everyone was still cheering and clapping louder for what they were doing but except for me, Tracy and Alec.
I feel like he's doing this on purpose to get back at me.
Penny starts pulling herself away from Nick and sat back down on right beside him. Nick looks at me but I quickly turned my head away from his gaze.
"That was fucking great." Penny bites her lips while glaring at me. She obviously had fun kissing him.
I bet that was, bitch.
It was Aries' turn and I wasn't really paying any attention to him. Until it was already my turn to say my consequence. Nick has never left his eyes on me after he kissed Penny and I feel like he wanted to see me cry.
"I never tried anal sex." I said out while my eyes glued at Penny.
They were cheering for me cos I was too blunt when I said it. Penny starts taking off her bra and flashed her boobs to everyone. As if she's so proud of it. Goodness her boobs are big. But Nick is just focused on looking at me. He's giving me a death stare.
"I never... had sex with someone older than me." One girl said.
I exhale. "I'm not taking off any layer anymore." I hear the men whine.
I'm not going to take off my shirt so you men could fantasize while I'm on my bra. I grabbed the bottle and started spinning it.
No fucking way.
It landed on Alec.
Nick's brows were starting to crease on the center of his forehead and he looks at me intently. Alec was looking at me in shocked and so does Tracy. Alec stares back at Nick but Nick was glueing his eyes on me.
"I'm not gonna do it." Alec says.
People were booing.
"She's a good friend to me. Like a sister. I'm letting Aries kiss her." He added.
My eyes widened and turned to Alec the same time Nick turned his head to him too. Alec gazed at Nick and I know Alec is giving me the chance to get back at this little fucker who has been ruining my life.
"I'm cool with it." Aries say.
"Same." I snapped.
Nick turned to me.
"It's not like it's the first time I've kissed Aries." I grin.
I turned to my side to face Aries and I smiled at him.
"I miss your lips angel." Aries says while biting his lip and smiling.
I glanced at Nick, making sure he heard it and I'm sure he did cos I see his jaw clenching. I moved closer to Aries and kissed his lips. This is a child's play but I was badly hurt. He kissed Penny like that even when he knows I have feelings for him. He did that on purpose. He wanted to hurt me on purpose. I kiss Aries deeper and harder. Aries kisses me back hungrily. I hear the others cheering for us and I'm sure Nick is watching. I'm sure he is.
I don't care if it'll get him hurt or not cos I know he wouldn't really care but I wanted to show him that I can set myself available to other men too aside from him.
I pull myself away and Aries was biting his lower lip. "Wow angel."
"We said kiss not make out." Romeo said.
I smile sheepishly and turned to Nick who looked like he's sulking on his seat. I ignored him. The game goes on and it was getting pretty boring on this couch.
"Excuse me. I need to use the bathroom." I say as I pull myself away from the couch.
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