Mated To My Best Friend's Lycan Alpha Brothers novel Chapter 61

Chapter 61: Conflicted Mind

(Brave’s POV) 𝘧𝓇ℯℯ𝑤ℯ𝘣𝓃ℴ𝓋𝑒𝑙.𝑐𝘰𝑚

*Huff ... huff ...huff .... huff*

*heavy panting and heaving and groaning*

I have been running around like a wild boar without any destination to aim for. My mind, my soul, my entire being is in a whirlwind of chaos and abyss. I want to scream, cry, beg. I want to plead. The agony I’m feeling right now is beyond any words mentioned in the dictionary.

The hope that flickered inside me when Nora showed me that opal, the sheer excitement I felt seeing it within my reach, I was purely overjoyed though I kept my expression neutral. When the black gemstone touched my neck and rested on my chest line, I felt this sudden urge to call out for my beloved, the name which has long lost its owner but is still very fresh in my senses.

I know what I sensed at that time, the presence of my wolf, my buddy, my Raw. He was there, I know he was. It wasn’t just some hoax thing.

"But then, why didn’t he wake up to my calling? Why didn’t he reply to my questioning when I call out for him? Is he still hurt because of ..... because of that incident? Why are you doing this to me, my dear goddess? Am I such a nuisance in your eyes? Do I not deserve anything in this life? Am I not earnest enough? Am I not good enough? Is this how things will end for Raw and eventually me? Just. WHY .... WHY..... WHY ..... TELL ME, JUST WHY?" I burst out kneeling, looking at the gigantic trees that surrounded me. I was deep inside the forest and it was pitch black here. The flurry of questions that were rotating inside me, made me feel dizzy and weak.

I felt my hopes shattering and everything sinking towards and reaching darkness. I was still wearing that locket, crying inside to call for my wolf, but nothing responded to my pleas. "Raw, please I felt you earlier, even if it was for just a millisecond, I did buddy, I really did. We are like two sides of the same coin, and can never be separated so what is this fuck?

The weight of despair was heavy and dawning at me.

After wandering aimlessly for hours and hours, I needed a distraction to calm my mind. My mind swimming towards the only distraction I was into these days was ... that human girl, surprisingly.

We never even properly interacted and mostly kept our distance from each other but still I was always following her these days, waiting for her, anticipating her, looking at her, reading her, taking in her scent.

My brain was buzzing and to end the tornado inside me I need to go see my distraction.

So, I made my way back to the area where the tents were set up. On reaching there, I saw everybody were already inside their respective tents, maybe sleeping. So, without making any sound I made my way towards the place where she was resting.

As I reached the entrance, I hesitated, ’Just what am I even doing here?’ I ruffled my hair in irritation.

Scratching my head in frustration, I just parted the curtain a bit to see her sleeping soundly. She was covered with a thick quilt and her face seemed a bit pink, ’Is she not well? Should I check on~ ... Wait .... Wait .... Wait ....Who am I to care for her? She has Nora beside her. And what is she to me, huhh? Am I turning crazy?’ I clenched my teeth at my inner turmoil.

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