Clementine:
The storm was quite bad. We could barely see past the passage, and beyond that there were only dust particles.
I spent the rest of my day sitting at the window, looking outside and thinking about what my old squad mates might be doing.
When the dinner was served by the lurkers, who struggled to keep themselves steady in the strong wind, everyone began returning to their beds.
After about an hour of lying down with my eyes closed and trying to sleep, I shifted in my bed and tossed around, feeling a strange void inside me.
I knew I was missing Ian. When I snapped my eyes open, realizing I could not fall asleep, I noticed someone else who was awake as well.
Joshua. He was sitting up in his bed, positioned so he could look out the window beside him.
I sat up and watched him.
I wore an oversized sweater with shorts, and my curly hair was messily falling around my shoulders and back.
Pushing a few strands behind me, I got up from my bed and wandered to Joshua’s, my arms folded over my chest.
"Do you need company?" I asked.
"Oh fuck off," he replied with a wave of his hand.
I sighed, and as I turned to step away, a hand caught mine.
I had not really noticed until then, but his grasp was rough around my wrist.
I looked down at how perfectly his fingers wrapped around it.
He let go after that, and I understood he did want company.
I climbed into his bed and sat on the opposite side of him, looking out the window.
"Do you think there will be another storm after this one?" I wondered, staring into nothing.
"I think the storm will never end," he remarked.
He released a deep breath before adding, "You miss him," he murmured.
I had not expected him to remember what I had said a few hours earlier.
"So he is the one you like most?" he asked, and I nodded.
"So you chose him?" he questioned again, and I nodded once more.
"Is he the one who left the mark on your neck?" he pointed out, gesturing toward the faded spot.
I touched it and groaned.
"No," I replied. I noticed Joshua starting to frown, likely waiting for an explanation.
The marks don’t really go away, especially marks from your mates.
But since this one was from Zian, who wasn’t my mate, it had begun to fade away.
"You miss Suki?" I asked, changing the subject.
"Well, you miss someone when you forget about them, and I never forgot about her," he replied, making me feel genuinely bad for him.
I had watched his life spiral after she died and then one by one, his squadmates were dead too.
"You know, I was never asked to come to the North," He continued to share, and I listened quietly.
"I volunteered," he explained. As soon as he said that, I realized what he was going to say next.
"For Suki?" I asked, and he nodded.
"Well, yeah. My father had written her name down, and my best friend’s name as well, so they could control me. They did not want Suki with me. So, to defeat them and still stay with my lover, my mate, I volunteered. But it is all in the past now." Joshua released a short laugh.
I noticed how he avoided meeting my eyes, and I could tell why. Maybe he was hiding his pain or the tears.
"So after you lost your friend and everyone else, especially Suki, did you expect your father to take you back?" I wondered, watching him frown at me.
"I mean, Oriana said that before her father died, he told her he offered something to the academy and managed to convince them to release her. Unless that was a lie," I added, remembering her words.
"Oh, that," Joshua replied.
"Well, I did not know her father was going to do that, but of course it was far-fetched. Even the universe would not let it happen." He let out a brief laugh before continuing.
"First of all, it is not easy for them to let us go, Clementine. We know far too much. And second, if someone wants to take their child back, they have to give up the entire pack. They have to give up their crown, and someone completely new takes over by the academy’s orders, a hired alpha. And I do not think anyone is foolish enough to do that. No one would lose their crown for one child."



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