The Alpha's Unwanted Luna (by Miss L) novel Chapter 5

4 - Kennedy

Walking into the gym and flipping on the lights I, at least, think to warm-up a little first. I crank some angry rock music, grab a speed rope and start jumping to get my blood flowing and my muscles warm, still letting the rampant negative thoughts run wild. Weak, Orphan, Alone, Replaced, Unwanted. Just a repeating loop every time the rope hit the floor a new word would pop up.

Once I had a decent sweat going. I moved over to the heavy bag, checked my wrapped hands and started running through our usual hitting warm-up then I just started wailing on the bag adding in kicks and full body movements, until I couldn’t feel my limbs any more. I stopped when I couldn’t push my body any further and leaned my forehead on the bag breathing hard. My weak human self doesn’t have the same natural stamina my werewolf friends do. Another wave of irritation washes over me. Not Enough, my internal voice taunts me.

Ben walks up next to me in his own workout gear and hands me a water bottle. “Did you get it all out?” I didn’t realize he stayed. He’s sweaty too, so at least I didn’t keep him from his workout today by being stuck babysitting me, again.

“For now, but that’s only because I can’t feel my arms.” I roll my eyes at him.

“You’ve been at it for three hours, I would hope so. I don’t know if I’ve ever seen you move like that. You are getting stronger and faster. Apparently your anger is your secret weapon.” He winks at me, but the amusement doesn’t last long.

“Well, I guess it’s good at least one of you noticed, finally.” I scrunch my eyes together and take a deep breath. “I’m sorry, you didn’t deserve that. I’m not angry at you, you’re just here.” I sit down on the bench next to the bag and he follows suit.

I see movement out of the corner of my eye and notice Tommy and Jason coming closer. They stayed too? I’m interrupting their night, now I do feel a little bad. They really should be getting to know their new Luna and hanging out with Jer.

“Is it safe to approach, or am I going to lose the jewels?” Tommy tries for a joke, pointing to his most prized possession.

“Shut up. You’ll be fine.” I roll my eyes and almost smile, but I'm not there yet.

“But, will you?” Ben asks and all I can do is shrug my shoulders.

“We haven’t talked for two days. We’ve never not talked for two days. What if she tells him he can’t see me or talk to me or be friends with me? What if she kicks me out of the pack house?” I take another drink. “I’m not going to make him choose, because he wouldn’t choose me. He couldn’t choose me, I know that. Mates are special and once in a lifetime.” I let the tears fall and I try to keep down the hurt and panic that has been bubbling under the surface since Jason pulled me out of class.

“He didn’t even tell her about me. I know that shouldn’t be a big deal, but I’m his human, female, best friend living in his house. That’s not normal on any level and he didn’t even tell her, you could see the surprise on her face. He's never been ashamed of me before, but it's never mattered before either. Maybe her pack isn't as tolerant of humans. And she was pissed I hugged him, pissed I was near him at all. She isn’t going to accept me in their lives and I don’t know what I’m going to do. I can’t get in between them, but I can’t just stay there and watch him pull away from me slowly. That will kill me.”

Ben wraps his arm around my shoulder and pulls me into him. I rest my head on his shoulder just letting the tears stream now, looking in front of me but not really seeing anything. Jason sits on my other side and holds my hand and Tommy kneels in front of me.

“Ken, we’ll figure this out. You are important to him, you know that. A new mate bond can be overwhelming and I’m sure he isn’t thinking totally clearly.” Tommy squeezes my other hand.

“That much I figured out on my own. What am I supposed to do in the meantime though? I can’t wait forever for him to pull his head out of his ass. And you guys will eventually find your mates and do the same thing.” A fresh wave of tears starts to fall. I close my eyes and lean my head back on the wall, willing them to stop.

“We would never leave you hanging, you know that.” Jason leans into me.

“I knew that about Jeremiah too, and look where that got me.” I take a deep breath and let it out slowly, opening my eyes to look at the ceiling. “I just need to train more, keep myself busy until I can get out of here, go to college and do the normal human thing. We all knew this was coming. I just didn’t expect it to be so sudden and suck so bad.” I move to stand up, but Ben holds me back.

“This isn’t forever, just give him some time. And stop trying to run away.”

“I’ll try, but I’m also not going to stand around being growled at. And I’m not running away, we all needed space.”

What I don’t say is that I will also be mentally preparing to cut ties with all of them, if that’s what make their lives easier.

I just wore my sweaty gym clothes home, wadding up my street clothes. I didn’t come prepared so I have no shower stuff with me and the disheveled hot mess look is a good representation of how I feel right now anyway.

The guys insist on walking me back. I try to not let it irritate me, because it still feels like I’m being babysat.

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