Wall Around Her Heart novel Chapter 12

I am walking out of prison. At last, I am free. I looked at. Shotgun, Liver, Silver and Knife waiting for me smiling. Let's get the fuck out of here I said. Larry, we have something to tell you, and you are not going to like it.

Spit it out, Silver, Larry, Knuckles claimed Candy last night. I stopped dead in my tracks and looked over at him. Tell me that is a joke. Not a joke. She accepted his claim. Candy is now Knuckles woman.

I was furious. How could she do this to me, I asked myself. Let's go to the clubhouse. We arrived at the clubhouse and walked in. Welcome home Larry, Knuckles said.

I looked from him to Candy and said, good to be back. I turned and was handed a beer, I walked over and grabbed a whore and looked at Candy as I pulled her down the hallway to my old room, which is still mine. A few hours later I was back at the bar.

Silver told me that they are getting ready to start the fire outside and food was waiting when I was ready to eat. We walked out back, and I grabbed a plate of food before sitting down at the picnic table.

I continued to ignore Candy and Knuckles. I know they have looked at me every now and then. I didn't let on that I even cared. I just enjoyed being out of prison and having my freedom.

I was not going to worry about Candy, there are more women in the sea. Besides, I had changed while in prison. I had been receiving counseling, and anger management. I knew that I needed help. I had made some bad decisions and did not accept responsibility for my choices.

I took my anger out on anyone and everyone. I also understand that I hate my older brother. He always thought I was the perfect brother, who did what I was told. I liked pulling one over on him. He was the perfect brother.

My mom and dad would always say, why can't you be more like your brother, or why don't you join the military like your brother? I started to hate hearing that. I am not my brother. We are two different people.

I used to look up to him but that got old fast. I know that eventually we will see each other, and he will want to kill me for what I did in the past. Anid if he doesn't kill me, we will at least fight.

I looked at Silver and told him I was going to my room. I walked into my room and shut the door locking it behind me. I walked over to my bag and took my bible out and sat down and opened it. This had become a ritual for me three years ago. I read my chapter, closed it, and began to pray.

I sat the cup down and opened the book up I had been reading. Forgiving what you can't forget and moving on. I need to forgive myself for what I had done in the past. I looked up as Silver sad down across from me. Since when do you read, Larry? Since I had nothing better to do the last four years. I also have learned from what I read. It wouldn't hurt you to start reading.

I heard him laugh and say, like that is ever going to happen. I am serious, Silver. You might find you like reading. Reading relaxes me and makes me stop and think. I put the marker in the book and closed it. I watched as Silver picked up the book and read the back of it. I do have to say, this sounds interesting. You can borrow it when I have finished with it. I might take you up on the offer, Larry.

I watched as Silver picked up his beer and walked away. I opened my book again and started reading. I must have been reading for an hour when I heard the chair scoot back again. I looked up and saw Preacher sitting down. Good to see you again, Larry. Good to see you Preacher. I saw him look at the book.

That is a good book to read. Yes, it is. I am enjoying it. Tell me Larry, how have you been since you were released? I am doing all right. Adjusting to the freedom. I read my bible every night and pray. I plan to find a church I like to attend. I go to work and come here, drink a beer every now and then, but mostly coffee, bottled water, or pop.

I can tell that you have changed. I have Preacher. I am not as angry as I used to be. I have learned to let go, to not worry about the changes I can't change. I am working on being a better man.