Wall Around Her Heart novel Chapter 20

I sat down at the table drinking my beer. I feel like so guilty. I should never have said what I did to, Tammy. I didn't know what they had done to her. Savage, called my name. Follow me, Beast, Blade. Once in the office I looked at them. Sit down. You need to see this. Computer found a video. Play it, Computer. How is that bastard still alive? I know that it was this bad.

And, now because of what you said to her. She hates you, Beast. She will never forgive you for that. I need to talk to her. That won't happen, Beast. I have to try. Good luck. But don't say I didn't warn you. I stood up and walked out of Savage's office. I walked across the room, stood on the porch, and looked over at the house. I'm sorry, Tammy.

I gritted my teeth and kicked a chair on the porch. I walked down the steps and paced in front of the clubhouse. I helped her build that wall again. I helped her to withdraw from the club. After what Larry did to her, I added to it.

Only this time I made it worse. I walked back up the steps and sat down. I laid my head back against the wall. I thought about the kiss with Linda. I felt nothing. Not a dam thing. No, feelings for her at all. She left me ice cold. But Tammy she started smiling, she started to get the sparkle in her eye.

She made me feel again. She made me smile, she made me want to make her smile. Then I blew it. I said hurtful things to her. I feel lost without her here. I don't like that she is not here. I lost her; I know that. Blade will win her love, her heart. But I need to try. I need to tell her how I feel.

I just was not prepared for what I would find in the morning. The cold icy look she will give me. I stood up and walked inside. I sat down at the bar. I looked up from my beer to see Gunner and Renegade sitting on either side of me.

Get it off your chest I said looking at my beer. Nothing Gunner? Renegade? Beast, you were putting life back in that girl. She was starting to feel again. The ice around her heart started to melt.

Then you kiss Linda, like she was the most precious thing to you. Then at breakfast, you put a knife threw her heart. You said the most hurtful thing a man could say to a woman. So, she threw the knife at you.

How is your shoulder? Hurts like hell. But I am sure not as much as her back does. So, you saw the damage that son of a bitch did to her?

I saw. Gunner looked at me. Let me guess. You could not hold her after seeing the damage. That is not true. I could hold her. But she hates me right now. I don't blame her. Right now, I hate myself for saying those things to her.

Beast, I thought you were a smart man. But I never thought you were a stupid man until today. Congratulations, Beast. You destroyed her in one minute flat.

I only gave you what you deserved. But, it didn't work. Now, he took the one woman I wanted and he claimed her for himself. He took her virginity, and he is going to get her pregnant.

I know that, Knuckles still feels something for you. So, I am going to kill you and through you at his feet. I hate him. He grabbed my arm and jerked me off the floor.

I looked him dead in the eyes. You, can kill me Larry, I don't care. You destroyed me four years ago. I could live with what you did to me. I couldn't live with what you did to my sister.

Knuckles does not love me. We were teenagers. It was not the love a woman has for a man. You destroyed my trust in any man. I hate all of you. I then started fighting him back. I flew across the room and hit the floor. I was not able to catch my breath. She was on me kicking the shit out of my ribs.

The next thing I knew she was hitting me with a lather belt everywhere. How does it feel, Larry? Each time she hit me. It hurt. Then blood was running down my face. I couldn't move and she was breaking my fingers. I screamed as each finger broke. I am going to make sure that you never hurt another woman again.