Ex-Husband's Regret (Ava and Rowan) novel Chapter 35

A knock on my open door makes me look up.

“There’s someone here to see you, Ava” Lydia said.

I’d finally gotten her to call me by my name instead of Miss or Madam. I am thankful that Letty convinced me to let her stay because she’s been such a huge help. She even does some of the chores for me. I don’t know how I would have survived without her.

“Who is that, mommy?”

I tell her to let whoever it is in before I turn to my precious son.

“It’s a nice lady called Lydia. She’s here to help me with chores” I answer him. My mind on who had come to visit.

If my guess was correct then it is either Letty or Ethan. Both have stopped by a couple of times to check up on me.

“Why do you need help? You’ve never needed it before, you’re super Mom” he looks at me suspiciously.

He was right of course. I always did everything by myself. Even when I lived at Rowan’s mansion. I thought it would make him see me in a different light. That he would see that I am not as spoiled as Emma who couldn’t even boil water. That it would be a point against Emma.

How wrong was I. It didn’t fucking matter to him. I was so stupid to think that he would stop hating me a little less if I made sure that all his meals were home cooked. That I could take care of my family and home and still be a working woman.

“Mommy?” he calls out.

I know that he wanted answers, but I’m saved from that when Travis walks in to my room. He was the last person I wanted to talk to, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t use him as a scapegoat.

“Noah, I’ll call you back…you uncle just arrived and I need to talk to him”

He sighs. “Okay then mommy”

We say our goodbyes and he signs off. The moment he does, my smile slips from my face.

“I thought I told you, I never want to see you again” I school my features. Blocking out all my emotions.

“You gave Letty a chance, why can’t you give us too?” he asks angrily, his temper flaring.

“Letty has been nothing but nice to me. Unlike all of you, she hasn’t treated me like shit for the mistake I made when I was eighteen and stupidly in love with someone I failed to see would never love me back”

Scarlet told me that she knew the truth. That Travis opened up to her when their relationship became serious and after she noticed I was excluded to some family dinners and get together.

“Please leave, Travis, and don’t come back. In fact consider me dead and forget you ever had a sister named Ava”

With that I turn and lay down on bed. Facing away from him. He’s quiet for a while, then I hear his footsteps as he walks away.

I can’t help the tears that hit my pillow. He wanted too much from me. I gave them my all. I loved them even when they were nothing but hateful towards me. I continued hoping and praying. Pouring out my love to them, thinking that one day they would reciprocate and treat me as one of their own. Instead they trampled over that love and destroyed my heart over and over again.

Now he wants to be a part of my life but doesn’t he realize it’s too late? They shattered me to pieces and now I had nothing to give them. I was emptied when it came to them.