My Marked Luna (Apphia and Nicholas) novel Chapter 19

It’s late at night, and I’m in bed, wearing cream silk pajamas. I’ve never worn such pajamas before; they feel wonderful on my skin. I close my eyes to sleep.

‘I can’t be with you. I’m the future beta of this pack, and if I were to accept you, which I couldn’t even in the next life, I’d lose my status. And besides, you’re not my type,‘ a memory comes back to me. I’m crying as Gavin says that to me. He’s rejecting me!

‘I reject you,‘ that is my voice. I’m standing there, helpless, as I watch the scene of my rejection play out before me. Gavin Jr was my mate! Tears run down my face. The scenes change, and I’m with Duncan, hugging him, and then I’m dragged away to my father’s office. He wants me to go to Amir’s pack.

I leave the room and find Gavin kissing Calla; there is an altercation between me and that bitch. I run, and Rory follows me to the lake, where he assaults me. Duncan finds me after I’ve killed Rory;

he’s telling me to leave and come back when it’s safe. He’s sad. Very sad. But I don’t buy it.

I turned on my heel and ran, tears streaming down my face as Amir’s men chased me. One of them pounced on me, and I fell to the ground, crushing my ribs. There was a roar, and just then, I was startled awake. I’m panting and covered in sweat.

Gavi was my mate, but he didn’t want me. I cry as everything becomes more explicit, remembering everything that happened. And Rory. He touched me. I feel his hands against my skin and his breath against my neck. My inability to breathe and the fear I felt that night. He raped me. I begged him to stop, but he refused. My skin crawls at the thought of him touching me.

“Apphia,” Lily whispers, walking over to me with worry. “Did you have a nightmare?”

She sits at the edge of the bed, her hand on my cheek.

“He raped me,” I burst out crying.

“Oh, honey. I’m so sorry,” Lily wraps her arms around me. I sob uncontrollably on her shoulder, my body shaking. Lily is stroking my back, whispering comforting words to me, but what Rory did to me is repeating in my head, “I begged him to stop, but he didn’t,” I cry.

“I know,”

“He hurt me, he hurt me,”

In the following days, I was in a deep state of depression. I feel profound sadness and misery. My heart hurt so much to remember what I’d forgotten. I lock myself in the bathroom daily, scrubbing every part Rory touched. Nonetheless, I never feel clean. My own body disgusts me because of it.

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I can’t eat or sleep properly; I wake up every night screaming because of nightmares. A constant ache in

chest never seems to ease up. I don’t utter a word to Lily or Doctor White, even after they offer me safety. Lily goes out of her way to make me happy by shopping with me online or putting on comedy movies. However, nothing seems to brighten my day.

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Chapter 19

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The only thing I do is write in my journal or notebook Lily bought for me. Writing helps keep my mind busy, and I have used it as an escape since childhood. My mother was a children’s book author, so I took my love for writing from her.

I spend my mid–morning in the shower after a session with my psychologist. When I get out, my skin feels raw and sensitive from all the scrubbing. I wear a burgundy polka–dot dress with black tights. I slip on my cozy house shoes and leave the closet.

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