"Tang Yue, my love for your aunt has never changed." Gu Chun made his stance clear; over all these years, the person he has constantly thought about, apart from Lian Tong, has never changed.
Tang Yue didn’t believe it, and retorted, "If you love my aunt so much, why then have you left her all alone for all these years? Why have you never shown up when my aunt looked for you?"
"I..." Gu Chun just began to speak when he stopped abruptly, his gaze falling on Lian Tong behind Tang Yue. Even without seeing her face, just thinking about her numb and stupefied expression made his heart hurt as if it was being squeezed.
Was it because of him that Tongtong ended up in this state?
"Are you trying to say you have your reasons?" Tang Yue pressed on. "What reasons could you have? If you spoke up, my aunt would understand you. But you say nothing about your reasons, nor do you clarify things with my aunt. You’ve just left her to wait hopelessly year after year. How can you bear to waste the best years of my aunt’s life?"
"My aunt has suffered a shock because of your issues and now she’s lost her mind. How are you going to compensate my aunt?" Tang Yue’s accusations pierced him like stabs to the heart.
He believed that if he left without a word, Lian Tong would end up with someone with the surname Lei.
Little did he know that he would later board a ship by accident, one filled with people not to be trifled with. He ended up in a den of bandits, and after a great deal of difficulty escaping, he got involved with things as a youth that he should not have touched, and Gu Chun felt even less worthy of seeing Lian Tong.
After finally getting clean, as the years went by, he found himself increasingly unable to even entertain the thought of seeing Lian Tong.
He was already insecure at heart, and now he felt even more unworthy. Although he had since established a successful shipping company, he still felt inferior and believed he didn’t match up to her, content only to guard her from a distance.
Year after year passed, and deep down Gu Chun would always tell himself that surely Lian Tong would come around, that she would see reason on her own.
Every year Gu Chun would visit Lian Tong secretly, but even after so many years, Lian Tong still clung to him.
Countless times Gu Chun wanted to clear things up with Lian Tong, but he couldn’t bear to do it. Plus, as he slowly built up his own shipping company, his opportunities to see Lian Tong became rare. Every time he mustered the courage, wanting Lian Tong to find her own happiness, he would always... back out at the last minute.
"Gu Chun, if you refuse to tell my aunt, can you at least tell me?" Tang Yue could see Gu Chun’s struggle and compromised in her request.
She stood in front of Lian Tong, afraid that Gu Chun would notice something off, fearing that if he did, their ruse would have been for naught.
"Do you really want to know?" Gu Chun took a deep breath, these matters had been buried in his heart for who knows how many years, he had originally planned to never speak of them in his lifetime.
Now, he felt he didn’t even deserve to stand beside Lian Tong.
It was something he had intended to take to his grave.
He looked at Tang Yue, this was Tongtong’s close niece.
"Yes." Tang Yue nodded affirmatively, her gaze resting on Gu Chun’s unusually gaunt frame.
Lian Tong’s hand rested on Tang Yue’s lower back.
Tang Yue thought for a moment and said, "Aunt, if you’re tired, lie down for a while."
Tang Yue helped Lian Tong to lie down on her side before she began to converse with Gu Chun.

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