The Alpha Train (Christina and Sebastian) novel Chapter 138

“Just so you know, Ezra, I give out free hugs anytime one is needed.”

“Good to know,” I say, almost feeling like I can smile. Almost. “And Charlotte, start thinking about what you want to try. tomorrow night,” I tell her.

She nods as she steps back but I crook my finger at her. She steps forward again, and I lean down, putting my mouth against her ear.

“Because I’m going to lick and suck on that sweet pussy

tomorrow night until you’re grinding your hips against my face, screaming about how fucking good I make you feel, and begging me to make you come again,” I whisper.

I hear her gasp as she steps back and looks at me with glassy

eyes.

“Yeah, tha vill work,” she says.

“We’ll try that then,” I say, watching her as she walks to the stairs to go up to her room.

Something about that interaction, about having the ability to take back some level of control has made me feel better. I dump the rest of my drink and head up to bed, ready to move past this week and start rebuilding my confidence so I can achieve what I came here to achieve my name on the leaderboard.

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Christina

1 slept better than I thought I would. But since I woke up with Sebastian’s shirt pressed against my nose, I guess I know why. His scent is calming. Even though he’s the one who broke me yesterday, I still crave his scent, his touch, and his intelligent mind. And yesterday, I realized that what I crave the most is his approval. I want him to find me worthy. I want him to see me for the strong woman that I am. According to him, he sees a stronger woman in me than I see in myself.

As I strip my sheets and prepare for laundry day, I think about what he said yesterday. I don’t disagree that my admiration for my brother borders on hero worship. He is my hero. He’s everything that I look up to in a person, an Alpha, and a brother. But have I really been holding myself back because I think that I might possibly defeat my brother if I gave everything I have to give?

And that line of thinking is more painful than I expected. What would Dane think if I defeated him? Would it upset him? Would he be angry? Would it impact his own confidence in his ability to be the amazing Alpha that he is? Because those are the reasons. that I would hold myself back.

But the answer is no. My brother, my hero, would be proud if I defeated him. He’d be the first one to cheer for me if I knocked him down on the leaderboard. He’d have a party and tell the entire pack, celebrating my achievement, even though it meant that I had defeated him, their Alpha. Because that’s the kind of man my brother is.

So then, does this mean even Dane thinks I could defeat him? Is this why he’s been pushing me to take the classes? To see what

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I can really do? But for what purpose?

And that answer makes me pause. It’s because he, like Sebastian, thinks I’m stronger than I think I am. No, they KNOW I’m stronger than I think I am. The two men that I respect most in this world see something in me that I don’t see in myself.

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