The Alpha Train (Christina and Sebastian) novel Chapter 171

Chapter 104: Sebastian

Sebastian

My conversation with Christina has been running through my head for days. She wants it all. She wants everything. She deserves to have that life, but am I willing to start all over again? My son is grown, an Alpha of his own pack. What would that mean for any children that I might have with Christina? There would be no pack for them to inherit. Both Dane and Ryan have heirs. So, what would the children of two Alphas do with their lives? And how would Ryan feel about me starting a new family? Would it upset him that I hadn’t stayed true to his mother, my fated mate, or would he accept that I have been able to find happiness again?

Those are important questions, but the more important question is, is this what I want? Am I willing to start an entirely new life with babies, diapers, bad dreams, and homework? Am I willing to dedicate the next twenty years or so, depending on how many pups Christina would want, to raising pups again.

The image of me and Christina, walking around Ryan’s pack lands hand in hand with two small pups running ahead of us, a boy who looks like me and a little girl with long blond hair bouncing as she chases her brother, comes unbidden to my mind. The image is so clear, so … perfect, that it steals my breath. I never had a daughter and the thought of having one with Christina, having a little girl of my own who looks like this woman that I’m falling in love with, brings an ache, a desire, that I never thought I’d have again.

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Our time in the forest was fantastic. It was thrilling to let my wolf hunt, chase, and catch Christina’s. She is a powerful wolf, and I had to run hard to catch her. The instinctual part of me had loved every minute of it, even down to forcing her submission when she challenged me. I would never do that in human form, but in our wolf forms, our instinctual nature is more dominant. She accepted my dominance and had given me her submission. And what a sweet submission it had been.

After hours of running in wolf form and letting myself feel rather than think, I had needed to show her in our human form how much she means to me. It wasn’t about the school, or classes. It was just about a man and a woman who care about each other.

Being with her like that, with our wolves still so close to the surface had been intense. Words like love, mate, and mine spun in my head as I made love to her. And yes, that’s what I did. I made love to the woman I love. It wasn’t me fulfilling a fantasy, it was me creating a reality. It was me accepting the fact that I could love someone almost as much or maybe as much as I loved Suzanne. I poured my heart and soul into our love making and Christina had answered in kind.

The question isn’t whether I love Christina. I do, and that love continues to grow and strengthen every day. The question now is, can I give her what she wants in life? Do we want the same things? And does she want those things with me?

The last few nights have been different for us. We’re still living out my fantasies, but rather than simply being fun, it’s more intense. I feel a desperate need to ruin her for any other man. I want her to achieve all of her fantasies with me. I want her to crave my touch and no one else’s. And because of that, it feels

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like things have shifted in the bedroom, or wherever we are. We still go back and forth with control, but the intensity of our connection continues to strengthen and every orgasm with her is better than the last.

I push those ever–present thoughts aside as I walk into Communication class. We’re coming up on the halfway point in the semester and now is when James and I start keeping closer track on who looks like they need help, who is working the program, and who is excelling. Unlike most classes, especially classes this large, we have multiple Alphas excelling, not just in one class, but in several.

Noah was never going to make it onto the leaderboard, but he seems to finally be hitting his groove with his studies. I think Josephine has a lot to do with that. Noah seems eager to please and the two of them have formed a connection since she arrived. She encourages him and he does his best to make her proud. It’s praise that she gives easily and frequently, and he is flourishing under that praise.

And that is why I’m not surprised to see her in Communication class today. James let the instructors and assistants know that today will be Noah and Tyler, with Tyler acting as Alpha. Just like Mia was here for Liam, Jo is here to support Noah.

I think Tyler and Noah are a good pairing. James is good about putting people together that can help each other. Well, except for Logan and Christina. But I got the impression that James knew exactly how that was going to go. Christina is much stronger Alpha than Logan is.

When he calls Tyler and Noah to the front of the room, Noah looks at Jo. She gives him a reassuring smile, letting him know

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she’s here for him.

Tyler starts easy, helping Noah to relax.

“Noah, how are you doing? You had a rough start here,” he says.

“Yeah, I did. But it’s better now. I feel like things are better anyway. Luna Jo is really helping me.”

“Because no one else would have. You have a gentle kindness inside you, something that you don’t see in a lot of Alphas. I never met your mother, but based on what you’ve just said about her, I’d say you carry a lot of her inside you. If you’d had a younger brother or sister, you would have taken care of them, just like you’re taking care of the pack. You would have done it because you’re an Alpha and we do what has to be done. But it‘ s also who you are, Noah. You would never let your younger siblings flounder or grieve alone. And you would have become their hero. I have no doubt of that. And that’s why I believe that you will turn your pack around. I believe the sun will rise again, because you’ll make sure it does. I understand grief, trust me. And like you, I’ve listened to the others in this class, taking in what they’ve said. It’s our jobs, yours and mine, to bring our

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