The Alpha Train (Christina and Sebastian) novel Chapter 177

Chapter 110: Logan

Logan

There was no surprise at the next Communication class when I was called forward. I’d wondered which Alpha Alpha James was going to have talk to me, and it turned out to be Tyler.

When we sit down, I lean forward. “How about I begin?” I say to him..

“Alright.”

I turn and look at Christina. “Everything you said to me that day you turned the conversation around on me was right. I was trying to bully you. It was a shit move, and I apologize for it.”

I see the surprise on her face, but I turn back to Tyler.

“My mother is the issue. My parents are chosen mates, and why in the goddess‘ name they ever decided they were a good pairing is beyond me. My mother despises my father, puts him down every chance she gets, berates and demeans him. For whatever reason, he takes it and doesn’t fight back. Over the years it’s only gotten worse. What used to be said behind closed doors or on the Alpha floor is now said in front of the pack and still, my father won’t stand up to her.”

I sit back. I’ve done a lot of thinking about this over the last few weeks, listening and watching the others deal with their issues.

“I look like my father. I look just like him, same build, same hair and eye color, same mannerisms, everything. The older I got,

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the more I looked like him, the more my mother’s venom turned on me. ‘You’re just like your father.‘ That’s what she says to me all the time. I’m just like him and she hates him, which means she hates me too. I know I hate her. I hate her for how she treats my father. I hate him for not standing up to her for himself or for me. I hate the pity that I feel from the pack when they look at him, knowing that they’ll probably look at me that same way when I take over. It made me not want to find my mate. If that’s how mates treat each other, I don’t want one. I’d rather live alone, run the pack alone, than have to live the rest of my life living with someone who does nothing but spew venom at me day in and day out.”

Tyler started frowning as I began making my big revelation. “What about your brother? Is she mean to him as well?”

I chuckle, but there’s nothing pleasant about it. “Oh no, Lawerence is the golden boy. He looks like her. He’s not a bad kid, but he certainly enjoys the attention he gets from our mother.”

“Do you think she’s hoping you’ll fail so Lawrence can take over the pack?” Tyler asks.

“Oh, yes. I know that is what she’s hoping for. She has very clear about how incompetent my father and I are and that the only way the pack will flourish is if my brother takes over.”

“So, what? You were trying to prove her right by failing?” Tyler asks me.

“I guess I stopped caring about being an Alpha. I slept my way through the pack to make sure that any mate of mine would reject me. I stopped asking my father to teach me how to run the pack, mostly because I couldn’t stand hearing my mother

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tell him how everything he was doing was wrong. I gave up. I stopped caring,” I say honestly.

“What changed?” he asks softly.

I look around at the others in the room. “I did, because of all of you. We’re all dealing with shit, right? We’ve all said that. We’ve all sat in this room and talked about the hardest things that we‘ re facing as Alphas. It was that, more than anything, that helped me to realize that I’m an idiot if I let her win. If I become the worthless, useless excuse of an Alpha that she says I am, then she wins, and I end up with nothing; no title, no pack, no mate, nothing. Liam’s in a similar situation–to mine, a parent who tells you you’re worthless. But he’s not backing down. Instead, he’s fucking doubled down to make sure he proves that he’s worthy of being an Alpha. Christina, you’re not even taking over a pack and you’re a better fucking Alpha than most Alphas I know. Noah, you’re thriving on the positive reinforcement that you’re getting in this Academy like you’re a fucking flower blooming. Tyler, you’re trying to live up to an expectation of everyone. around you and again, rather than shying away from the challenge, you’ve embraced it and fucking run with it. And Ezra, you’re already so close to being perfect it’s hard to even compete with you. But you all did what I didn’t do. You fought to win. I laid down and accepted defeat before I even got here. But not now. Not anymore. I’m going to prove her wrong and even if I can’t pass the Academy this time, I’ll be back next semester and this Academy won’t know what hit it,” I say, looking at Alpha

James.

“Alpha Logan, I’m proud of you. I don’t know what your mother does or doesn’t see in you, but apparently, she’s missed the part where her son is lot stronger than she gives him credit for,” Alpha James says. It’s the first truly positive thing I’ve heard.

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from anyone in so long that it makes my throat tighten.

“You’re right about most likely not passing this semester, Alpha Logan, but keep that mentality, keep this energy. You’ll only be home for a week and then you’ll be back here, excelling next semester. With this attitude, you’ll pass easily and be able to take over your pack in no time,” Alpha Sebastian says.

“Dammit, Logan, now you’re going to make me start liking you,” Christina says, making everyone laugh.

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