Wall Around Her Heart novel Chapter 26

As my brother walked over to the table, I saw that look on his face. I need to find out what happened. Legend, take a walk with me, I said looking at him.

We walked out the back door and into the woods. I know that look, Legend. What is it? I don't understand. Understand what? Tammy, she told me that she trusts, Renegade, and Gunner because they treat her like a sister and don't want to have sex with her.

What does she mean by that? I stopped walking and looked at, Legend. Legend was she a virgin when she was raped and beaten? She was 16 years old. Then, she could have been a virgin.

Shit, Legend she is terrified of sex. Why? Sex was painful to her. That raped her, that means they were not gentle with her. They did not prepare her for what was about to happen. They beat her as well.

You men do not understand. If you don't prepare a woman and you just jam your cock in a woman, it hurts. It hurts really bad.

I looked down at, my sister, Robin, are you hiding something from me. Don't get mad, Legend. While in college, I was raped. I was still a virgin. Sex scares me too. I think about sex as something that hurts.

I am sure that, Tammy is thinking of sex as painful. I would never do that to her. I know you wouldn't. But she doesn't know that. Tammy, like me happens to be afraid of sex.

If you had not noticed, I have not dated since I came home from school. Robin, you should have told me. I would have killed that bastard. Is that why you look so sad most of the time?

Yes, I like New Yorker, but I am scared of what comes from being in a relationship. I always wanted a man to hold me, kiss me, love me. But I just can't do it. I am scared.

Robin, he would never hurt you. I know that. But my head doesn't know that. I just remember the pain of the rape. My head tells me that sex hurts. And I don't want to go through that again.

Trust me, Robin. The right man will make you feel good. And he will make sex good for you. Not bad. I don't know, Legend. Trust me. New Yorker will not do anything you want to do. Trust him. I will think about it.

Now, if only I could get, Tammy to trust me. She keeps her distance. We heard yelling outside and walked out to find, Tammy surrounded by those four men that were at the bar.

Oh, Tammy, just who do you think all those men in there are going to believe. You, or us. Bikers stick together. Just then, Tammy kicked that bastard in the jaw.

You actually think my father will believe that I let you put your cock in me? You, stupid mother fucker. Did you forget there is a tape floating around on the internet showing what you all did to me?

And you think just because you had your cock where you wanted it he is just going to make me accept your claim? You really are one stupid mother fucker.

You all make my skin crawl. I hope that Knuckles make your death a slow, painful one. You all deserve to die after what you all did to my baby sister and me.

Goodbye, Knuckles. I walked around them and crossed the street. I opened the door and let my two dogs out. Spike, and Killer.

They sat on each side of me as I watched Knuckles members handcuff the four of them and threw them in the van. Good riddance.

I turned, opened the screen door, walked inside, locked it and walked to the kitchen. I poured a cup of coffee and sat down at the table. I stared out the window and thought about everything they took from me.

I feel so dirty anymore. Sometimes, I think about killing myself. I hate it when I see a man, I think is cute. Right now, I think about Legend, a lot.

But all I can do is dream. Because I can't let him do anything with me. I can barely stand his hands on my back. But then his hands take the pain and burning away. He is gentle and sends pleasure through my body.

Why is that when no other man's touch has done that? Stop thinking that way, Tammy. You know it won't happen. Those same hands could inflict pain just as much as they could pain.