Ex-Husband's Regret (Ava and Rowan) novel Chapter 116

Even now, when I came back and I was sure that things were looking up with Rowan, she had to go and ruin it. Rowan now barely pays any attention to me. Since that day at the dinner party he hasn’t called or checked up on me.

His focus has been completely on Ava. It makes me hate her more because once again, she’s taking him fromme. I didn’t want to admit it, but things have changed. Rowan isn’t the same boy that fell I love with me.

He may not know it, but I can tell. He has some feelings for Ava. I don’t know exactly what he feels for her, but the feelings are there. My biggest fear is that he’s in love with her. I don’t know what I will do if that is true. It would really break my heart if that’s the case.

Taking out my phone, I call my best friend.

“Hi love” Molly answers on the first ring.

I collapse on my bed as I fight back my tears. “Everything is falling apart Molly. I don’t know what to do”

I felt drained. Tired. Everything was so exhausting and I felt like I was carrying this huge burden on my shoulders.

“Why don’t you tell me what’s bothering you, then we can work from there” she asks.

I proceed to tell her everything. Every single damn thing that has happened since our last talk. Just going over it again brings a sharp pain to my heart. I don’t want to imagine living life with Rowan. I know we hadn’t talked for nine years, but the moment we decided to try, things just felt right. That’s before once again Ava came between us.

“Listen, Emma, I have to agree with Ava” she starts to say.

A frown forms on my face. “You what?”

I mean damn it, we never had sex because I was waiting for a perfect time but yet he slept with my sister. That is what I can’t get over. The fact that Ava knows how Rowan feels, but I don’t and I was his girlfriend long before.

“Lastly Emma, you need to come clean” Molly says pulling me back to the present.

“Why would I do that?” I whisper, afraid of my secret getting out.

“Because it’s time to own up Emma and take responsibility, deep down you know that you’re not being fair to him. Think about it.” she sighs is frustration.

She’s been telling me this for years, but I’ve been pushing it to the sidelines. Maybe she’s right, but I’m not ready yet. I will hold on to my secret for just a little bit longer. I don't want to deal with the disappointment that it will surely bring.