His Personal Fucktoy? This Doll Just Snatched His Strings... And His World Is Unraveling novel Chapter 9

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The summer I turned eighteen, Caspian Shaw made me taste forbidden fruit for the first time.

I endured the pain but secretly stayed happy all night, thinking my six–year crush had finally come to fruition.

Until the next day when I heard his friend teasing him:

“Damn, such a hottie really took your V–card!”

Feeling embarrassed, I was about to quietly slip away.

Then I heard Caspian’s careless reply drift over.

“I wanna hook up with the head cheerleader, but she’d probably think I’m too inexperienced.

“Figured I’d practice on Teagan first.”

Suddenly, my heart felt heavy and bitter, but I said nothing.

I just went home and, at the last possible moment, quietly changed my college application from New York to Miami.

Goodbye, Caspian Shaw.

Caspian’s words hit me like a bolt from the blue–totally out of nowhere.

My mind went completely blank.

Even in the sweltering summer afternoon, I felt ice–cold all over.

The conversation in the classroom continued, the guys seeming stunned for a moment before speaking again.

“Yo, that’s our boy Cas–even the class hottie is just practice.”

“So she’s basically like his little side piece?”

Caspian laughed carelessly:

“Dude, what are you even saying? She’s not exactly suffering here.”

Someone immediately chimed in.

“Yeah, for real. The Tea–girl’s kinda skinny though. Compared to the head cheerleader, her body’s… well…”

Caspian rolled his eyes and threw a book at the guy, cutting him off.

“It was just a spur–of–the–moment thing, you know? The vibe was there, and I could tell she was really struggling to hold back…”

The guys exchanged knowing looks and started roasting him:

“Who knew Teagan was secretly wild like that.”

“Damn, classic Cas–too irresistible. Easy hookup right there, why not take it?”

“Teagan’s been thirsty for Cas for years. She finally got what she wanted–bet she’s been dying to get in his pants forever.”

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The laughter inside get even louder

I bit my lip hard, clenching my hands into fists.

It took everything I had to stay upright and not collapse right there in the doorway.

Footsteps approached from the end of the hallway.

I snapped back to reality, fled in panic and hid in a bathroom stall.

The tears of hurt and humiliation had already burst through.

Caspian’s words echoed in my head over and over again.

Destroying every shred of my self–respect.

If I hadn’t heard it myself, I never would’ve believed the guy who’d been tangled up with me all night was the same person.

Turns out you can hook up without love.

Turns out you can lie and deceive even in your most passionate moments.

What I stupidly thought was true love was just a joke to everyone else.

The more I cried, the sadder I got.

But I didn’t dare make any noise, my body shaking uncontrollably.

After what felt like forever.

My phone buzzed with a notification.

It was Caspian.

[Take an Uber home yourself. My boys and I are hitting up this party tonight, can’t bring you along.]

I didn’t reply.

He sent another message.

[Remember to get the plan B yourself, I’m swamped today. Make sure you take it, babe.]

I stared at these two messages for the longest time.

Yesterday from evening till dawn, Caspian had his way with me over and over.

Finally, when we were both exhausted, before falling asleep holding me, he specifically murmured twice:

“Babe, should’ve been more careful for your first time. I’ll definitely remember to get you the pill tomorrow,”

He even reminded me that girls need to protect themselves, that pill was essential, otherwise it could really mess up my body.

Back then I thought he was being responsible, that I’d finally found my happiness.

And now…

Suddenly I felt a lot more clear–headed.

I pinched my palm hard, forcing myself to stop crying.

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1 dried my tears, pulled myself together, and left the bathroom.

Too embarrassed to go to a pharmacy, I ordered the pill online.

After the delivery guy left it at the door, I waited ages before sneaking out to get it.

After swallowing the pill through my tears, I felt like I’d lost all my strength, just sitting numbly on the floor in a daze.

Ever since moving next door to Caspian’s house, I’d been following him around like a little puppy for ten whole years.

I’d never imagined what a world without him would look like.

I didn’t dare to imagine it.

But from now on, it would just be me.

I don’t know how much time passed before my bestie Raya FaceTimed me.

“T, why didn’t you come to our class kickback with Caspian tonight?”

“That prep school princess Juniper Collins showed up though, and with you not there, she’s all over him. It’s honestly disgusting.”

After Raya finished talking, she flipped the camera around.

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