Irresistible Boss Succumbing to Your Touch (Maria Anita) novel Chapter 479

Flavian’s POV

I looked at Manu with a sense of despair, certain that after this conversation she would leave me. I felt my heart bleeding with sadness knowing I was losing her. I had lied to her when I never wanted to lie. I had hidden important things about my life when I should have been frank, honest, and direct with her. The worst part was that I wasn't the type of person who lies and conceals things, but I was terrified of thinking she would leave me, and my worst nightmare was happening.

She asked me why, with those caramel eyes that were dark, heavy like storm clouds. I wanted to touch her, but I didn't dare. I wanted her to forgive me, but I doubted she would. I wanted to turn back time and undo so many things, but that was impossible. I had been so afraid of losing her that I hadn't thought something much worse could happen - I hadn't thought I could hurt her, and I did hurt her, which was worse than losing her because I couldn't bear to see her unhappy.

"Manu, I..." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, opening them again to look at her. "I never wanted to hurt you, but now I see that I did, and it hurts my heart more than anything else. But when Sabrina reappeared, I just wanted her to disappear again without you knowing because I knew that when you found out, you would leave me. You're young and were raised with fixed and somewhat outdated ideas about many things, and you have very solid values. Precisely because I know who you are, I knew that as soon as you discovered I wasn't divorced, you would leave me. To be honest, I think you would have left me just knowing I had been married before, divorced or not. And the idea of losing you devastates my heart."

She watched me, weighing every word I said, without moving a muscle in her face. She simply observed me. So I continued.

"You became all my happiness, little one, my life. You're like an angel that I dared to covet and who, by some divine miracle, looked at me and wanted me. I just want to be with you, I was made for you, there is no one else. Everything I did before you, everything I was before you, was just smoke. I want to be with you, it's for you that I live. Nothing else matters to me, interests me. Whether my parents accept you or not, that doesn't interest me, and I don't care about breaking ties with them if necessary. I love you, Manu. And I didn't want you to go through what you went through here today. Every lie I told was to prevent you from leaving me, and every time I left saying I was going to a shift was to prevent Sabrina from getting near you. Every time I went to Bellwood, it was to prevent my parents from hurting you. And I'm capable of anything to keep them from hurting you. But between protecting you and not losing you, I ended up hurting you. And I know you won't forgive me." I finished speaking with a sob and felt a stubborn tear roll from the corner of my eye.

"Do you have so little faith in my love?" she asked in a low voice, but keeping her eyes on mine. "Do you doubt what I feel for you so much that you think your parents or a woman who hasn't been in your life for so long would make me leave you?"

"Answer me, Flavian? Do you think my love for you is that fragile?"

"No, little one. I know you love me. But I know your beliefs would drive you away from me," I replied, still looking into her eyes.

"If you know I love you, why didn't you trust in my love? Can't you see how much I've changed; how much you've changed me? My beliefs are nothing compared to what I feel for you! Flavian, you talk about my beliefs, but you forget that I left them behind long ago. I left them behind when I gave you my virginity in that bed, I left them behind when I agreed to move in with you, not caring whether you would marry me someday or just discard me when you got tired of me. I left everything behind when I fell in love with you and then when I loved you. And I've never regretted any of it."

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