My Hot Alpha novel Chapter 190

I took a seat as she went about making my tea. The nerves faded and I loosened up a little.

“How are you doing?”. She asked.

“I’m okay”. And I was. We were handling things and sorting out what we needed to. He was always going to be hot headed. His temper was always going to be there but I was willing to stay.

I wanted to stay.

I wanted us to work.

“You know he didn’t want to leave right?”. She placed the hot mug in front of me. “We made him sweetheart”.

I felt the lump appear in the back of my throat. They made him leave?

“He was dangerous Leah. His head was all over the place and we couldn’t risk him being around you like that”.

It kinda made sense.

“If he had hurt you he would have never forgave himself”.

“I get that”. I whispered. “But what happens because we missed the full moon?”.

“Ah eager to mate?”. She grinned causing the heat to spread across my cheeks. “The next full moon won’t be long in coming around”.

“I didn’t feel anything. No pain, no heat, no nothing. Is that normal?”.

“When an Alpha meets his mate they are meant to mark and claim as quickly as possible. It’s tradition for the mark to be made during the mating. You won’t feel anything until a few days before”.

She wasn’t getting what I was saying. “But I felt nothing. He left a few days before and I experienced nothing”.

“Then the moon goddess gave you a free pass”. She smiled. “You experienced something when you accepted the bond yes?”.

“Yeah”. I didn’t want to remember that pain. “But how can I have accepted the bond if we’re still not mated?”. I didn’t get any of this and even when they tried explaining it I still came up with nothing.

If I didn’t feel anything then does that mean our connection was broken?

“You don’t feel the connection?”. She frowned. “The sparks when you see him. The little bit of excitement in the pit of your stomach?”.

I felt myself smile. I felt it all. The sparks, the tingles, the way my body hummed whenever things got heated.

“Stop putting so much pressure on yourself. It’ll all happen when it’s meant to happen. And when it does you’ll understand everything”. I felt better but I always did after speaking with Charlotte. “Just let it happen”. She reached over placing her hand on mine. “Don’t think about anything just feel”.

She was right. I was stuck in my head way to much. It was time I stopped thinking and just went with the flow.

“Thanks Charlotte”.

“You’re welcome sweetheart”.

Finishing off my tea I heard her before I saw her. She bounced into the kitchen grinning. “He’s kicking her out”. She turned her phone towards me but pulled it back before I could finish reading all the message.

“What’s going on Alanna?”. Charlotte asked. “Who’s kicking who out of where?”.

I had a pretty good idea what was going on.

She was right but it still didn’t sit well with me. Where would she go? What would she do? If they kicked her out was she allowed to stay in town?

“I’m going to round up the pack. Stay here because you need to witness this”.

“I do?”. I didn’t want to be apart of it. I didn’t want to give the rest of the pack another excuse to hate me. I needed to get them to trust me, to like me. Jessica was family to them and I, well I was just a human who happened to be their Alphas mate.

“When are you going to realise that you are one of us?”.

I didn’t feel like one of them. Not all of them disliked me but there was still a good few that did. But this wasn’t my decision and it was out of my hands.

“Half of your pack don’t like me. If she gets kicked out because of what happened then they’ll hate me even more”.

“Is that what you really think?”. She frowned. “That they hate you?”.

I shrugged. They hadn’t exactly made me feel welcome. Only a certain few. Jack and Lacey, his parents and of course Alanna.

“They’re distant because they have to be. They can’t fully approach or talk to you because it’s disrespectful”.

“What?”. My heart hammered in my chest. What did that mean? Did they really like me? “But you talk to me, Jack talks to me”. I didn’t get it.

“Jack is Beta and you are my soon to be sister in law. Once you are fully mated you’ll see the difference. You have no idea how many of the young girls are dying to meet you, the elders that want to teach you”.

“What”. I felt the lump in my throat. All this time I thought they hated me, wouldn’t accept me but they were respecting me all along.

“I really have to go but please stay”.