The Alpha Train (Christina and Sebastian) novel Chapter 146

Chapter 146

He rubs his wrists, staring at the ceiling as we both catch our breath.

“So…” he says, not looking at me.

I turn my head to look at him. “So, it’s a good thing we have eight weeks to achieve all of that,” I tell him.

He turns his head to look at me. “You’re not disgusted by all those things that I want to do with you? What I want to do TO you?”

“Did it feel like I was disgusted?” I say, chuckling.

He rolls on his side, and I take his hand, kissing the spot on his wrist that is rubbed raw from his thrashing.

“You’re serious? You’re willing to do all those things with me? Willing to let me take you rough like that?” he asks, sounding surprised.

I turn on n side so he can see the truth in my eyes.

“Sebastian, even if I wasn’t taking the sex class where I’m supposed to make sure you have the best orgasms of your life, everything you just said sounds exciting and fun. I wouldn’t do those things with just anyone, but trust goes both ways. I trust you and you obviously trusted me enough to tell me those things. I know you were afraid of hurting your mate, and I’m guessing that you were also afraid of what she might think of you if you’d told her you wanted to do those things with her. But

I’m not fragile. I won’t break. I’m an Alpha like you. You can throw me against a wall and fuck me like a jackhammer without worrying about hurting me. I like the thrill of sex under the moonlight, or in our wolf form, or even the risk of getting caught. It makes everything feel more forbidden and therefore more exciting.”

I reach out and stroke my fingers over his cheek. “I want to live out those fantasies with you, Sebastian. I want you to have the opportunity to experience them. I want to be the woman you experience them with,” I tell him honestly. “But I would also say. I think this was good for you, Sebastian. I think we should also practice you giving up control sometimes”

“It felt better than I thought it would. Probably because it’s you. It felt freeing to not have to be in control, even for just a little while and to be able to trust that you wouldn’t take it too far.”

“No. Like I said, trust goes both ways. I trust you to make sure that I’m safe, even in front of the class,” I tell him, my stomach flipping uncomfortably at the idea of Sebastian going down on me during class.

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