The Alpha Train (Christina and Sebastian) novel Chapter 56

“I obviously have some things to learn about what it means to be with an Alpha female. I should have taken that into consideration from the very beginning and I didn’t. I don’t want you to feel guilty about last night, but I also don’t want it to happen again. I’ve been working to build trust, and I hope that trust isn’t broken,” he says, and I shake my head.

“It isn’t. Although, I thought maybe you were going to fire me as your assistant.”

I smile tugs at his lips. “Are you firing me as your instructor?”

“No,” I say.

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“Good. Have a seat. I planned to talk about your classes tonight, but this is more important. Can you tell me first, what I did wrong; and second why you faked your orgasm?” he says, sitting across from me and leaning forward, his elbows on his knees.

Sebastian is always intense when he’s listening to me, but tonight, it’s almost overwhelming how intense his gaze is. It’s as if I’m the only person in the world and my words are giving him the only air there is to breathe.

I scrub my hands over my face, then look back up at him. “It’s not you, Sebastian, it’s me.”

“I’ve already told you why that’s not true, but I’d like to hear why you think that.”

I stand, unable to take the intensity of his gaze that seems to be drilling into my soul to find the answer to his ques- tion. I begin pacing.

“I can’t have an orgasm … I mean, I can. Just not with someone else,” I say, looking at him.

He tilts his head at me. “Your body says otherwise. The scent of your arousal was very strong, you were soaking wet, Christina. Your body was fluttering around my fingers like you were on the verge of an orgasm, so what happened?”

I swallow the lump in my throat and tap my temple. “My brain kicked in. I can’t let go of the control. I never have. I don’t know how. You came really close to making me lose that control, but the moment my brain snapped into gear, it was done. I didn’t know what else to do, so I faked it. I’m sorry.” I whisper the last part, looking down as I fight the tears of shame and embarrassment. I’ve never told anyone this before.

I hear him stand and then his arms come around me.

“You have nothing to apologize for.” He tilts my head up to look at him. “Of course you don’t give up control. You’re an Alpha. We’re not very good at that, are we?” he asks, making me laugh as I feel the tears sting my eyes.

“You’re not broken, Christina, as you’re implying you are. You’re a powerful, capable, intelligent Alpha female. Even if I didn’t know that before, your first time on the Beast would have proved it to me. Someone like that, doesn’t like to let go of control, especially to someone who isn’t their mate. And even then, it’s not always easy. I would like to try

“Good. I want to check your back first, make sure you’re completely healed and I’m not going to hurt you when I touch you. I’d like to stay here, if you’re comfortable with that. I think it might be harder for you to let go if we’re in the classroom. Let’s give it a try here first, then we can try it in the classroom later this week.”

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