Alpha Damon (Sienna) novel Chapter 81

Damon:

I slammed the door to my office shut harder than I needed to.

The sound cracked through the hallway like a warning, and maybe it was. A warning to stay the hell away from me. To leave me in my silence. To let me think. Because those who dared approach me today were just going to end up dealing with my wrath, and I knew that no one would want to find themselves caught in it.

But right now, thinking was the last thing that I wanted to do.

Because the only thing that kept circling back into my mind was her.

No matter how hard I tried, all I could think about was her.

Sienna De Luca.

The Omega who had no place being in my world and yet somehow… managed to become the center of it. Somehow managed to become the one thing that I thought of day, night before I went to sleep, when I was taking a shower and even when I needed to work.

She moved back to her old room.

After everything I had done, after I offered her the safety of my space, after I let Isla sleep under the same roof as me, after I defied my mother, she just packed up and left without a damn word. She treated me as if I was nothing. She did not care about what I said, She cared less about my opinion.

And I was angry.

Angry that she walked away again.

Angry that she didn’t look at me the way she used to.

Angry that she made me feel like I was the stranger in my own house.

And angry because I found myself not knowing who she was, no matter how hard I tried to figure her out.

I raked my hands through my hair and paced across the room. I could feel it again, that tug in my chest I had started to pretend wasn’t real. That pull toward her. It wasn’t just physical anymore. It hadn’t been for a long time.

And that terrified the hell out of me.

Because wanting Sienna meant losing control. And I couldn’t afford that.

I could not bring myself to find myself being attached or growing closer to the Omega. And yet that was all I found myself wanting.

Not with my father recovering, not with Giovanni’s people still lurking, not with Lysandra’s betrayal turning into something much more calculated. And certainly not when the pack already looked to me like I had lost my grip on everything.

I stopped at the window, staring out over the estate grounds.

The moonlight brushed across the field where we used to train, Sienna and I. She was getting stronger. She didn’t flinch anymore when I raised my hand to show her a move. She didn’t back down when I barked commands. She stood in front of me, she looked me in the eye, and she was more than willing to take the challenge.

She was learning how to survive… without me.

And the worst part was, I was the one who was training her to do it. I was the one who was teaching her how to survive without me.

And that thought sent a sharp jolt through my chest.

I wanted to protect her. I wanted her safe. I wanted Isla safe.

But I didn’t know how to want her without destroying her in the process.

I didn’t know how I could do so without pushing her away from me, without forcing myself into something that I was not going to like. She was different. She was not like the others. That was something that I knew for a fact. And now that she was growing stronger, she was just proving to me that things were never going to go back to the way that they were.

A knock pulled me from my thoughts.

But I said nothing.

Mostly because they had nothing to say. Mostly because his words were ones of truth. He was loyal to me, I was aware of that, but she was a fire that I could not contain and his feelings for her I could not blame him for.

“She’s not just a girl anymore,” Ethan added. “She’s the mother of your daughter. And if you still see her as some mistake from your past, then you’re the one making the real mistake. Because I’m not the only one who can look at her, Damon. There are other wolves within the park. There are other men who would be more than willing to give her a shot. She’s beautiful, smart and every other man would want to have her in his life. I would suggest that you don’t end up losing her. Unless, of course, you want to find her in another man’s arms…’

He turned and left, leaving me alone with my own damn storm.

I sat down at my desk, resting my elbows on the surface, head in my hands.

I hated the fact that he was right.

I hated that I didn’t know what to do about it.

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And I hated, more than anything, that the only thing I wanted right now… was to walk into her room, pull her into my arms, and ask her to stop pushing me away, right after I stop pushing her away too.

But I didn’t move. 1

Not yet.

Because I still hadn’t figured out how to be her Alpha…

And her home.